My Gangster Love

04/01/12 Hey Guys ! started writing my first story ever support me ; Vote , follow me and yea ill update every day :D

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I opened my foundation box that had a little mirror inside of it , and pretended to look at myself when really I was aiming the mirror at the person behind me who had been following me all over the mall . Who is this kid ? , Yes he was handsome but I was getting creeped out. I was so concentrated on the guy that I didn't watch my step and I slipped , 'stupid floor had to be wet' I suddenly felt that after like 20 seconds I never hit the floor . 'whoa Jesus saved me and has me in mid air ' ,i thought . I was a strong girl that didn't show any emotions but at night I cried my eyes out begging god to give me strength to go through life's everyday pain , so as you see I'm very though and what so ever, but i have my soft side . I snapped out of my thoughts when I realized that somebody had their hands around my waist helping me up . "You okay there?," asked the same guy who had been following me and caused me to fall . "Yea thanks" I said as I stood up straight . "My name is Downer , nice to meet you" he smiled as he stretched his hand out for me to shake . "Julissa , " i shook his hand. "Woah you tatts are dope" he examined my right hand that was full of tattoos. I had a portrait of my cousin who passed away from cancer , a bunch of doves running from my shoulder down to my wrist and ofcourse I had my gang tattoo that covered up the rest of my arm . "Thanks , " i smiled "Are you serious , you belong to the red califas " he asked as he seen my gang tattoo , In northern California 'red califas' is a gang well know all over California and some cities in CA (not all , just some)have their leader along with twenty or more members and every two or three months all the gangs meet up in Sacramento California for reunion and my brother is the main leader of Stockton California's gang wich means im part of it too . "Yes , why are you the enemy" i looked into his eyes confused "No of course not," he said in defense "Im part of haywards gang" That was interesting i had never heard of that boring lame city having our kind there. "Ill invite you to eat," he said . He didn't ask , he SAID it . I couldn't say no and plus i was starving , and my house is the last place i wanted to arrive to . You see , at my house me and my older brother , Jose are being blamed for my stepdad being in process of deportation . My stepdad had been getting into an argument with my mom and I was getting home when I heard my mom scream and the wall being hit so my instinct told me to try to open the door but nobody opened it and the kids were screaming and crying so my last option was to call the police . As soon as the cops got home my mom came out crying and slapped me because she said that my stepdad was drunk and he had one of the little kids carrying and she was scared so she try to take the kid away from my stepdad but she fell and hit the wall . Once the police arrested my stepdad, he had been sent to a detention center were he is now currently waiting on his court this weekend to find out if his bail could be lowered because right now it's $5,000 and we are saving up money for the bail and also behind on the monthly rent for our house . From then on my mom and my 7 yr old sister blame it on me , and I do regret making that call because this wouldn't be happening , but then again i was in a pressuring moment and it was my last option . I snapped out of my thoughts once i realized Downer was wipping the tears out of my face and we were sitting on the food court with subway in front of us . ' Had i been day dreaming that long?' "Why are you crying " he asked hugging me into his chest . I hate this feeling of people feeling bad for me , but I hadn't been hugged by anyone in the longest and I needed this affection , I felt so alone in this world . Feeling like everything was blamed on me , my dad was 12 hours away from me , my mom was mad at me , my stepdad was locked up , my five younger siblings wouldn't understand my pain and my one friend that always had my back was out on vacation . I didn't cry i just shed like two tears but his hugg felt so much to me at the moment that I didn't want to let go "I'm sorry," i said , "I berely met you and I already have you feeling bad for me " "I don't feel bad for you , it just brakes my heart to see such a strong looking girl having so much pain within her" he said as he dugg his face into my hair . We ended up talking for hours and I explained everything to him ; something about him made me feel safe . He said that his dad had been murdered by the opposing gang when he was 12 and that's why he joined , for revenge . His mom stays in Hayward and he moved out with the gang and his twin brother about a week ago to Stockton Ca to find the guy that had killed his father.I soon realized that it had hit 11:00pm and I had to be home before my over protective brother started looking through ocean and land for me . We swapped numbers and decided to meet in two days at the same mall , I hugged him one last time and walked the opposite way .