In a fortnight

Chapter 10

I was walking behind Tom, he held me by my hand and he unlocked the door to his place. When we got inside he set his keys on the table, and took off his jacket and hung it up.

After the premier we just decided to leave, Tom offered me his place to stay the night. I know gentleman,am I right?

"Are you hungry? I can make you something." Tom took  the coat of me, that he let me borrow and hung it up also. He lead me to the couch to sit before I could answer.

"Can I just get a cup of water?" I said looking at him. He nodded his head and made his way towards the kitchen. This gave me time to take in his home.

It was very cozy, it was completely beige and brown, his tv was off and the coffee table looked a bit messy with coffee like stains. I couldn't finish looking at it before he came back with my water.

"Thank you." I took it from him and took a sip. It was like my body did a factory reset. He sat next to me. It turned into kind of awkward silence until my phone rang.

I turned towards it and it was Ewan. I'm not sure what exactly he wanted. All these emotion started coming back, I felt a tear fall, as I tried to hide it, Tom noticed.

"Did he do something to you?" He looked from my phone to me, obviously reading the caller ID. He moved closer to me, maybe an inch.

"No, I'm just very emotional." I tried to laugh it off, but failed, miserably. He put his hand up to me face and wiped my tears, I looked up and he was a close distance from my face.

"You can't just ask like this about him without a reason." He looked from my eyes to my lips, and I'd be lying if I said I didn't do the same.

"It doesn't matter." I leaned it a little closer, and I'm guessing he noticed because he leaned in as well.

Our lips touched, but it wasn't as electric as mine and Ewans. But I was so full of emotion I didn't care. I wanted as much as I could get. I deepened the kiss and lead him backward until he fell back and I was on top of him. We didn't break the kiss for anything.

He leaned up on his elbows which signaled to me to take my dress of, so I did. He took that opportunity to flip us so he was on top, he trailed kisses down my neck to my chest. He pulled down my bra straps and kissed where they once had been. He kissed my lips again while unbuttoning his shirt, he took it off in a rush.

I took off my bra in that time. He sat up and I lay back down, his eyes wandered all over my body, admiring me. He smiled and kissed me.

"What's so funny?" I asked when he stopped kissing me. He kissed back down my neck, all the way down to my chest.

"Absolutely. Nothing." He said between kisses, his hands moved to my waist, he held me as he sucked on the peaks on my chest, I let out a tiny moan, careful not to be too loud. "It's ok baby." The vibration of his lips stimulated me a little too much and I lightly bucked my hips.

He felt it under his hands and kisses past my stomach, he looked back at my face, I was already looking down at him, and without him even asking I gave him all the permission in the world.

He smiled against my skin, he pulled them off my body (ifykyk, I'm cringing so hard) I felt most insecure. He pulled my legs so they were on his shoulders and he just went in. The contact of his tongue felt so cold against me I couldn't hold in my moans. (Time skip because that's enough for yall corny mfs)

We had fallen asleep, I looked around, it was completely dark, I checked my phone it was 2 in the morning, I had over 20 missed calls from Ewan and over 40 texts. I felt ultimately very bad, but I was hurt.

Him showing up with that girl obviously meant he didn't feel the same. He wasn't as torn as I was, I just want to know why?

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I've called and called and called. After we couldn't keep our eyes off each other I thought I still had a chance. Seeing her with Tom, made
My blood boil.

Out of all people. You choose him? I was right here the whole time. Granted I did show up with a friend to the premier. I can understand why she wasn't returning my calls, but that didn't make it hurt any less.

Do you know how much I yearn for her? Only her? My mind explodes with ideas that include her in them. She's what I center my world on, if she's unhappy, I'm unhappy.

It just doesn't make sense, to me atleast, if this was "months in the making" why did she kiss me? Why did she let me stay over?

I just can't compute, I feel hurt, really really bad, and I don't know how to fix it.