Bathtub reggie very sad. Drowns. James finding him. But beforw that sad thoughs and some fluff but dont think its going to end happy.
jegulus one shot. SUMMARY this one is an sad one. super angsty. umm SH and suicide. dont worry its not going to end happy. i promise. you are in the marauders era fandom and that means your never going to be happy. and i feel like writing angst about suicide. its an muggle AU. also POV are changing between regulus and james (:. sorry. is inspirit by our word (song) and before you leave me (song) and a little bit of all of me (song) but not much
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regulus
this is an story about love. this love is only meant for an screen. an movie even. my name is regulus. my brothers name is serius and his boyfriend is named remus. they have a friend. JAMES. not only his friend but also my boyfriend. my brother hates it. but more funny hate it. when he found out he runned after james untill they got tired and felt asleep on eachother the next day serius had an serieus talk with him i dont know what they told eachother but i know it works. the funny thing is that me and brother hated eachother before this all. now not that much. we reconnected and now we would do thinks for eachother its not normal. i would kill for him and he would do the same. now going back to me and james. james is my sunshine i love him very dear. i would never admid that to his face. i love him and i do not know what i would do without him. all tho he is sometimes annoying. we are the perfect exemple for an grumpy x sunshine romantisch.
im also the perfect exemple of an depressed teenager. i was mentally and physically abused by my religions parents. who think that god is the one to follow while im totally not into that. i have really dark thoughs and i sometimes want to kill myself. im now 18 years old. and my boyfriend is now 20 years old. untill now i never did anything with myself. ofcourse i sometimes cut myself but that is just an way to cope with my feelings diffrent that cry or scream. this was the first time i exally wanted to die. my mother just slapped me and gave me a kick. my whole face where really bloody and my nose was bleeding. it was because my parents found out i had an boyfriend. so my father said they needed to kick and slap the devil out of me. they read the bible while my mom kicked the blood from my nose. i was running to my brother and his flatmates. since that day i read the bible every night to do my rights and beter the person i am. every day after my boyfriend and i kissed or even fucked i cleaned myself with the big old bible. after sometime i noticed my brother and his boyfriend became a little bit uncomfterbull with me. before entering i read the bible to them. they alost never came in. sometimes after an bad they i would cut myself while telling myself that god would never love me. deep down i knew he would but i didnt believe it. today was a really bad day. i saw my mother ofcourse she coul dnot stop saying that im doing a sin by being with a man. after that my brother came to my house telling me its not normal to read the bible to everyone who walks into your house and its not straight. after that my own boyfriend wanted to go on a walk with our cat. i didnt feel like walking my cat. i hated feeling like this. he got out of my house and i got into our bathroom. i toke the sharp shaving knife and took it to my skin. normally i didnt put the knife so deep into my skin. but i didnt feel it. after that i made an bath to stop the bleeding. i sat in the bath and my water turned red. my arm hurted like hell and i wanted it to stop. it didnt. my whole life i lived like i was scared of my mother and god. but i am going to face god. i am going to face the devil, and dead. i wrote a letter to james, serius and remus after that i took my shaving knife and put it against my blood vessel in my wrist. it hurted but i just did it. then my other wrist. the blood stained the water in the bathtub. i had layed the letters next to the bathtub. even the letters had blood on them. i heard james talking in my head. he said things like how beautiful i am or that im so brave for doing this. i felt my eyelits close and i was eated by the darkness. my breathing slowed down. a slipped into the water. i suddenly became aware i could not keep my head above the water. i gasped one last time for air. i thoughed about what my brother would say. "my brother, regulus" "no he moved to paris. shes very happy or so we hear. he's always so gooddamned independent, the years go by and now i barely see him" after hearing that in my head i felt into an coma. i died. drowning by my own blood.
james
i came home after walking our cat. the whole day i had an awful feeling in my stomic. i felt an pain in the middle of my walk. i walked around all the places me and reg always go. like the cat tree. there is always one cat mr. three leg. that is the cat who always lives there. one day we are going to adopt him regulus always said. but today he wasnt in his tree. some time later we saw him in some rose bush. dead. i came home a little said. i yelled "im home love" i didnt get an answer so i walked to our room. he wasnt there. then i saw that our bathroom lights where on. i walked to the room. and there he layed. my beautiful boyfriend. "reg wake up" i got him out of the warm red water. his body a little stiff but still warm. i hugged him whille crying. the only thing re-playing was how he loved calling me jamie. there was annote with my name. one for serius and one for remus. i could not open it our whole bathroom was redish. "love wake up. im not ready to let you go" i cried. "pleasse give me one more night. hold me like im still you're still mine. before you leave me" i cried while hugging him. i tried calling serius but when i did the only thing he heard was a loud sob. he was so concernt but i could not tell him what happend. i got out something that sounded like call an ambulance so he did 5 minuts later me and my now dead boyfriend where in an ambulance. i could not let him go. i cried and cried. i saw remus and serius in the hospital. they gave me an hug whill i sobbed in there shoulders. untill serius and remus saw regulus. serius also broke down crying. i gave them there letter. i also began reading mine.
hi jamie you need to know i love you. i need you to know that it wasnt your fault. please dont cry. i need to face god. telling him that your an good persoon. if he doesnt agree im going to kill god. i can do that. maybe im dead you're not. so live your life. go party. go sob because our cat is dead. get a new partner. be happy do it for me. i see you soon. remember we are a team. and i would do anything for you. go comfort serius. be happy. dont cry pls. fall asleep in my clothes whill laying in bed with our cat. get an child like you always wanted. all of me loves all of you i promise
i cried. not because of the letter but because i couldnt take his pain away. i loved him and i would never forget him. i will never get over this. im going to be with him soon.
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dit is to fucking much. i cried while making this. the grammer is very bad but i didnt have anytime for it to work. so ummh sorry dor making you cry. bye loves<3
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marauders era one shots
Fanfictionthis is a story with many (or so i hope) one shots. its almost always about a ship so no yn/marauder caracters. because i hate those. no offence. the main ships are going to be: jegulus wolfstar rosekiller Some ships at the side: jily pandalily...
