She stepped out of her house without thinking twice . The darkness of the night didn't haunt her ,the roaring of the clouds didn't scare her . She looked up at the stairs before making her way towards the terrace. He held her hand before she could reach the terrace.
"Ekane boshi " He whispered
Her shivering legs stopped and sat down on one of the stairs . He took his place beside her before holding her hand. For the first time in her life , a man was holding her hand . The person she loved the most was close to her but words were not escaping her mouth . She kept her head on his shoulder feeling the tranquility of the dark night. So many things to say, so many complaints, so many tears to shed but nothing came out of her .
"Kichu bolba na?" He asked sensing her quietness .
"Nah " A whisper came out her mouth . She knew this moment was not the truth of her life, everything was a lie but what about the nights she passed crying and praying to get him . She clutched the sleeve of his shirt tightly as if he will disappear leaving her all alone again. Tears rolled down from the corners of her eyes . All she wanted was him ,his love and this night to last forever. The sky made growling sound again with heavy rain pouring down as if mourning with her .
"W.. wh.. why this moment can't last forever ?" She asked in cracking voice trying hard to control her tears .
"It can't " He answered emotionlessly.
Is it so easy for him?she means nothing to him? All the things, all the butterflies, all the emotions were only one sided? She asked her heart . She realised maybe it was another dream . Maybe He came in her dream like always to go away again leaving her alone when the sky lights up .
She held his hand tighter. He came infront of her before holding her another hand too . He gently wiped away her tears . She looked at him with tearful eyes . The pain she was feeling was unbearable. She knew he can never be hers still her heart was begging to hide herself in his arms and forget the world . She let go of his hands before holding his face with both of her hands . Her fingers were shivering and tears were flowing continuously. She looked at his eyes . His eyes looked like her favourite poetry's description. His gleaming face was like the moon which she can admire from afar but could never have . He himself was the "Dua" her heart enchants all the time . She caressed his face with her shivering fingers feeling all his features as if imprinting him in her heart . Maybe the gap between them was bigger than her love. She was dieing thousands of deaths with each passing second but nobody heard the cracking sound of her heart . All her eyes begged him in silent language was "Please be mine"
"If it is a dream than I want to sleep forever " she whispered making the hold of her hands tighter around his face . He didn't say anything just kept looking at her face . She was strong enough to fight with the whole world but when it comes to him,she is a helpless girl in love and he is well aware of this fact .
She felt dizzy and her half opened eyes were swollen. She took away her hands from his face . She knew the more she looks at him the more she will fall for him . She held one of the railings with her hand and tried to get up . Before she could get up ,he held her hand and pulled her in a hug .She Finally closed her eyes. She wrapped her arms around him trying to hide herself from the reality .The hug was not an act of intimacy for her still she tried her best to feel him more .
"Mone ache ami ekbar msg e bolsilam I am ready to die in your arms ?" She whispered in her muffling voice .
He just nodded hugging her tighter.
"Then don't wake me up if I sleep like this " some last words escaped her lips before heavy blood flowing from her lip's corner.
