My Broken Billionaire

Chapter 23: When I'm With You

Isabella POV

" You can sleep in which ever bedroom you want...okay? Don't be shy if you want to sleep with me..." Nikolas ends his sentence with his handsome yet cocky, signature smirk. The great thing about this mansion is that it is on private property, including a private beach and hut. Trust me, Nikolas looked like a child on Christmas when he found out, and at that moment, I knew what was in his dirty mind.

" No thank you, Nick, I'd rather sleep with rats."  Nikolas shakes his head, and I know he knows that I am a little agitated by his playful words. Without any doubts, it's obvious that Nick and I don't have a professional relationship. Without any realisation, my heart is developing a certain liking and wanting for Nikolas. Maybe I like him as a friend, a brother, or something more...but it's hard to place my finger on the feeling as this ball of unrecognisable emotions are still growing.

Sometimes I contemplate on why Nikolas always caresses my face, or calls me beautiful, or even gives me a little compliment, because I know for a fact that bosses don't do those things to their secretaries unless they are in a friendship or a relationship. And Nikolas and I have kissed a few times, so my heart is forcing me to acknowledge and agree to the assumption of Nikolas liking me. The only disturbing question that is causing my doubts, is that why does Nikolas like me? When I am useless, lazy, careless and selfish?

Most of the time, situations don't make any sense to me because quite often, there's no answer to my unspoken question. " Bells, do you want to watch a movie before we go to bed? "  Nikolas almost sounds like he wants me to join him in bed, which I highly doubt that it's going to happen. Nikolas is a man that gets what he wants, so that is the reason why I am always careful around him, except for when he kisses me. His kisses are like this potion that causes your whole body to turn numb, your mind to be cloudy and your heart to swell in delight.

" Bells?! Hey..."  Nikolas takes my face into his hands by gently cupping my cheeks. Concern is clearly scribbled on his face, and he looks impossibly adorable. " Yeah...sorry, I was just thinking. And no, I want to go bed because I am really tired. Sorry, Nick." A smile stretches across his lips the second his nickname escapes from my mouth, and I gladly return it. Nikolas' eyes flash with obvious disappointment as he hears me reject his kind offer. And I inmediately feel a knot of guilt crawl into the pit of my stomach.

" It's okay, Bells. You get to bed, we have to meet the client tomorrow." As I hastily reach out for Nikolas' hand, he casually pivots on his heel to cover up his true and undeniable emotions. When I met Nikolas, it was impossible to read his feelings and emotions, but now it's quite easy because I am used to his familiar actions. " No, Nick. I know you want to watch a movie, so why don't I scan the channels while you get the popcorn ready? "  Nikolas chuckles humourlessly, but this time it is not in a cold manner, he just doesn't want to force me into anything.

" Bells, if you don't get to sleep, I will personally tuck you into bed." Automatically, my eyebrow raises in response to his useless threat. My hand lifts to rest on my right hip, to support my unstable stance. You may be thinking why I am doing this, it's because his enticing eyes are boring into mine, and that intense look sends me a shock of nervousness combined with pleasure. He makes me feel weak. His voice. His body. His touch. His eyes. Everything about him makes me fall. Fall for him so low that it is impossible for me to get back up.

" Tuck me in bed, then."  As soon as those words escape my mouth, shock is spread across my features, but what takes me by surprise even more, is Nikolas' unexpected expression. A devious smirk dances along his perfect lips, and my mind already knows that he is conjuring up a little act to play on me. " If you're that desperate..."  Nikolas swiftly strolls towards me, like an angel, but somehow more flawless. His eyes hold mixed emotions that are foreign to me, although I could recognise a few. Challenge. Mischief. Lust.

Before I know it, Nick is slowly leading me to a spare bedroom. This all reminds me of Nikolas' home, the designs and patterns on the furniture are more or less the same. But the one thing that reminds me the most, is Nikolas and I being together in comfortable silence. It's like the silence we share is the exchange of our words, which may sound unusual to you, but Nick would understand. His warm, large hand rests on my back so perfectly, it's as if his hand is meant to be there, like that's its rightful place. And I believe it is.

" Walk towards the bed, Bells."  His hot breath fanning my neck causes my body to shiver in pleasure. I feel his teeth lightly graze my earlobe in an irritatingly slow, teasing manner. Bolts of electricity sprint from the area where Nikolas' teeth were, and courses through my vulnerable veins, making sure that my whole body receives the same amount of delight. Nikolas notices that I am not following his orders, so he removes his hand from my back, and it feels as if a blanket of warmth has been removed from my back. This is the effect that he gives me. The one that I absolutely cannot ignore.

A mix between a gasp of shock and a moan of pleasure escapes my mouth without my consent just as I feel two large hands covering my ass. With this done, Nick forces me forward, encouraging me to walk towards our destination. Exactly how I am feeling right now is utterly unexplainable. The feeling of his hands pressed against me is too overwheloming for any words to be spoken, so I stay quiet and reluctantly obey Nikolas.

The minute Nikolas and I reach the bed, he gently nudges my shoulders so I am in a lying position on the expensive bed. This is when I see Nikolas' beautiful face hover over me like a watchful hawk ready to relish it's prey. " Bells, you are the most beautiful person I have ever laid my eyes on. How can you be so perfect? " At this moment in time, I am not sure if this is a dream or a hallucination because Nikolas' strong cologne is blocking my senses. So my best option is to treasure and cherish this moment as another one may not come my way in the future.

" Bells, when I'm with you, there is a huge ball of emotions tumbling around in my stomach. I seriously don't know what it is. Can you feel it too, Bells? Or is it just me dreaming? " There is absolsutely no response from me, because his words force unwanted tears into my eyes. Why is he making me feel like this? Weak? Vulnerable? Sensitive? How does he have this effect on me, but not any other guys? Is it possible to feel like this towards a guy?

" Let's go to sleep, Bells. We have a long day tomorrow."  Nikolas gracefully lifts my body bridal style, but before this, he shuffles the blanket down the bed so I can lie under its welcoming comfort. Why I am letting him pick me up, I don't know, but an echoing voice screams that these actions are perfectly fine. That these actions are meant to happen. Like it's all meant to be.

#Ash

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