The Doctor is In

Part 5

TW: mentions of emotional abuse

"How long has he been like this?" Asked Sasha poking Jean in the side.

"Since about 5:45pm" Erwin said.

"Is he dead?" Connie asked.

"Not in my bar he better not be...he's only had two drinks, they weren't even that strong."

"Mfmfmdmhfm"

"What was that Jean boy?" Erwin asked.

Jean lifted his head. "I blew it..."

"What like a guy cause that doesn't seem like a bad thing-OW?" Connie asked earning an elbow in the ribs from his girlfriend.

"No you ding dong" Sasha said, "I think he meant with that hot doctor."

"So he blew the doctor"

Sasha and Erwin groaned.

"Connie I think he means he messed things up with him." Erwin said. "Though he still won't tell me what happened."

Jean rested his head on his chin. "Another whiskey sour please."

Erwin set a glass of water in front of him.

"I'm not drunk."

"And I intend to keep that way...drink".

Jean took a swig of water. "Look the mood seemed right, and....near the end of his shoot, we kissed."

"Is that all you did?" Sasha asked.

"Well...no but obviously it escalated and he was all in and then...he freaked out and bolted."

"Are you sure he wanted to go further?"
Erwin asked.

"He's the one who pushed it further, but when I started going for the back door..."

"Did you ask if he wanted to have sex?" Erwin asked he gaze set hard on Jean.

"I didn't get a chance too, but I probably should have before I even moved in the direction." Jean let his head drop back on the bar.

"Maybe he's a virgin?" Connie suggested.

"He probably wasn't expecting any hanky panky either." Sasha added.

"He certainly didn't act like he was a virgin, but then again..."

"Yeah I did realize Sasha was a virgin the way she sucked-OW!"

Sasha gave him a look.

"Sorry just trying to make him feel better."

"Well here is another theory." Erwin offered. "One that I've had some personal experience with."

The three turned to him.

"He's either just gotten out of a relationship and/or he's had a bad sexual experience. Keith had a hard time with intimacy for a while, due to a bad boyfriend....just a thought" he said walking to take care of a couple who had just sat down.

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Marco rubbed his temples, he had a slight headache.

"Come on baby, just suck it up for me ok?"

"At this rate no man is going to want to be with you"

Marco tried to chase the voice away.

"It's sad really..."

"Marco?"

He opened his eyes, relieved to see his therapist poking her head out of her office.

"Afternoon Hange," Marco said making himself comfortable on her suede couch.

"It's nice to see you again, Philadelphia still treating you well?"

Marco nodded. "Still haven't seen the Liberty Bell yet but I have had a Philly cheese steak."

"With cheez wiz?"

"Isn't that the only way?" Marco laughed.

"Smart man" Hange said.

Marco looked at the picture on her bookshelf.

"How's Levi and the dogs?"

"Good, we just took a weekend trip to Sea Isle City, dogs loved the water, though Levi didn't like the messy aftermath."

"Speaking of messy aftermaths....what happened with this Jean guy I know you didn't make an appointment for small talk."

Marco let out a sigh. "Well things got...intense."

"Sexually?"

Marco nodded. "I...it was really nice at first. I mean I think I really like this guy, but he started making moves towards sex and I panicked."

"Right, what exactly were you feeling in the moment?"

Marco sat for a moment. "I felt...like I didn't deserve to be there. Like either Jean was going to be...like him...or I wasn't going to be good enough."

"When you say 'like him'..."

"My ex."

Hange took some notes. "I know we really haven't had much time to go into things about your ex since I started seeing you...I know it's a tough subject, but if it's ok with you I'd like to start exploring that..."

"Well...he's the reason I left Charleston for starters."

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"So he still won't take your calls?" Mikasa asked.

Jean sadly shook his head. "I have his photos done too. Hurt like hell to edit them."

"They turned out well. He photographs well."

Jean let out a small laugh. "I can't argue with that."

"Have you tried emailing him that his photos are ready? Collecting payment?"

"He mailed me a check. Won't answer the email."

Mikasa leaned back against just desk chair. "Well there only seems to be one solution."

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"Dr. Bodt the patient in room 4 is ready."

"Thanks Hitch"

Marco didn't even bother to look at the name on the chart as he knocked on the door.

"Good afternoon, I'm Dr. Bodt. How are you doing-"

Marco stopped dropping the chart.

"Jean...what are you doing here?"