🖤Is it Wrong?🖤

♡Chapter 3-Don't think about it♡

My heart was about to explode, I know that probably Charlie is high af but what if he notices. I'll be damned! probably I'm being way over dramatic but at least every possible scenario is covered in my head… except the one where he catches me.
- We better go soon Mar, for your “awkward” situation and for Rose almost passing twice- Alice starts to search for her car keys while grabbing my hand and leading me towards the door.
-Alice how? Who told you?- I say concerned, I thought we were far away from them when the kiss happened but there's no problem with them knowing about it while they keep it a secret.
-Yeah… that's not the usual flirting between you two, he teases you and you tease him back sometimes but, there was never a kiss in the final equation!- she says almost shouting while looking at me mad as if I did something wrong.
-Charlie is gonna kill me isn't he?
- He's so high that he won't notice it unless Adam talks.
- He's conscious, like he knows that wasn't right but he wants something more.
- You know him, don't be fooled.
-But he insisted twice.
-He's gonna end up in that blondie’s house- says a very drunk Rosalie- probably I'm drunk but we know his real intentions.
-Even Rose knows, don't fool yourself Marie!- she grabs me by my shoulders- you can get over this after all, it's just a kiss!
-She's a hopeless romantic- says drunken Rose while getting into the car- there's no remedy to that shit. 
We drove back home, they left me there alone… thinking about life on the house doorstep, I sat there searching for my keys while looking at my phone. I saw 5 missed calls from Charlie! I'm worried, thinking about all the possibilities while calling him back, is he gonna kill me? is he gonna be just disappointed? 
-Hello?- says in an indifferent tone.
-Hey bro! What are you doin?
-I mean… I'm at the party with Adam, where are you?- says that last phrase in a sarcastic tone, he’s probably mad at me.
-Oh! the party yeah Rosalie passed out twice so they dropped me off at home- I say while getting into the house, going up the stairs towards my room.
-Yeah, Adam told me, I was kinda worried about you… that's all- he gets silent for a second- by the way I'm going late… very late so don't wait for me, maybe I'll stay at Adam's place.
I breathe more calmly, like if he just removed a weight from me- As if I was about to wait for you… if you come late ain't telling dad.
-Thank you! you're the worst.
-Love ya too- he hung up. 
 I was in bed thinking about the whole party thing. I couldn't believe I kissed him! I kissed Adam, he's been my crush since forever, well actually since the party Charlie had for his 15th bday and he showed up all handsome at the door to play video games for the whole night, but who cares after all I need to come back to earth and behave normally as if nothing happened… right?

○the next day○

I wake up startled by my phone it is 2 PM, the messages from my friends, Charlie and an unknown number which I don't care to check made the phone sound as crazy, basically Charlie begging me to not tell anyone he has been partying with Adam, my friends asking about the kiss and a missed call from mom saying she'll come back late since they're on a “important lunch” with dad, which lefts me in house all day by myself until Charlie comes back from his crazy night. 
Sadly I can really do things by my own, I'm basically useless that's why I decided to go to Julliard, being an actress can't be easy but better than stay all day long at home with a politician family and a drug addict brother who can be insanely annoying when it gets about me liking a guy. Yes Adam can be a womanizer but who cares! is not like I want to date him. 
I'm just a girl who likes a boy who happens to be a womanizer and kisses so well, and knows how to treat a girl like a gentleman. But he wont like me back, and I totally don't care about it, it's just that he can feel something about me someday; indifference, friendship, lust, love. I don't care, I have to know!
Even tho he's just a silly crush I truly think of him about something more than just a crush, he probably be the one, it really sucks being a hopeless romantic with a guy like Adam, cause there's no room for romance in his life (according to Charlie) but what if there's a opportunity to just be more than a hook up with him… be his girl.
Or maybe he doesn't think of me that way and he really is the one night stand type of guy who after a great night with him will leave with the empty promise of coming back and loving you, which we all know is a lie.
My phone rings from across the room, is Charlie saying he'll pick up some stuff because he's staying with Adam a few days; he tends to do this specially when he knows that he will be scolded for his behavior that's why as soon he graduate he decided to live his life and forget about college even Adam is going to college, it seems weird why he won't go with him but is my brother, I'm the only person who doesn't judge him and his decisions. I go downstairs to open the door for him and go back to my room, I need some time to process the whole Adam thing. I was drunk but conscious about the whole thing. I search for my keys, unlocking the door for him until it opens, I go back a few inches to let whoever was waiting for the door to be opened. 
-What up, sweetheart -Adam says while going inside and sitting on the couch and signing to go by his side- had fun last night?
-Lots, Rosa passed out twice and I got pretty drunk even danced with some guy according to Alice, he may be pretty drunk too- I say while getting next to him. 
-Just remember being high, maybe had a beer or two. Charles was dancing -he says while mimicking a robot- he ain't very good at it but he tried. 
-You say? He's stiff as fuck but, out of topic, what are you doing here?
-Just waiting for your brother, I'm the one with the car after all
-It could have been easier to just pick him up and come here and get back to your place, don't you think?
-Yeah but that hot chick from the party left me waiting ages for her to just disappear mysteriously. 
-Same as the guy that I danced with… so weird right?- I say sarcastically
-Yes, and you know what I'm looking at her right now- he says while getting closer to me and grabbing my chin- kiss me again. 
I get up and start walking towards the stairs -Ain’t one of those girls, you can fool me easily. He gets up right beside me, walking behind me, as soon as I put my feet on the stairs and grabs my wrist pulling me towards him and pinning me against the wall.
-Little Mills you ain't one of them and that makes me desire you even more- he says softly in my ear at almost a slow pace - I just wanna remember last night. 
I look up his face looking me up and down my body and then going directly to my lips, his free hand goes to my chin until he let's me go, as he goes again to the couch and sits I notice that his eyes can't stop looking at me, I left and start going up the stairs. My body has the feeling of something missing, my heart pounds faster than ever and I can still feel his gaze over me, I get close to my room watching from there the whole scene: an almost white living room with a guy in a loose shirt with a leather jacket by his side, playing with the car keys and looking occasionally to the door and upstairs. 

At this moment I realized that I still like him but he may not be the one, this can be just a game for me as it is for him. I hear Charlie in the house coming upstairs to pick his stuff,he of course comes with Adam who just waits outside the room. 
I call Rosa to let her know I'll be near her house to chat about my afternoon but in a very hungover voice she refuses and says she'll manage to get to my house in a minute, it let's me with no choice more than cook something for her and get in better clothes than an oversized Le Tigre shirt and my pajamas shorts. As I get out of my room Charlie gets out of his and proceeds to get downstairs directly to the door and Adam's car, he mumbles “Adam get your ass in here” which could mean he's still here on the house, I turn my head towards the bathroom door and the light is on, meaning he's there. I close my door as loud as I can for no reason and he gets out of the bathroom fixing his hair and shirt until he sees me in the stairs just about to start my way downstairs. 
He gets right beside me and starts going down with me, he whispers:
-You'll be mine,  sweetheart 
-Don't think about it darling.
This game has officially started