Emotionless | DAERIN

5: the DVD

Let's see... It's been a few days since Danielle said she would help me with my emotions and let me tell you... She had trouble.

The whole time through dinner the other night, she did nothing but try to make me laugh or smile, but she just managed to make me more annoyed and raise eyebrows from her parents and mine. Let me tell you, she's really persistent and hasn't given up yet. That's something I find interesting about her. She never gives up.

"Haerin, can I come over to your house after school?" she asked, tilting her head.

I looked at her, "Why?"

"Because I have an idea on how I can make you feel something," she said, looking at me.

Curious about what she had in mind, I agreed to let her come over.

I pulled into my house, and we walked to my door. I got my keys out and started searching for my house key. "Okay, one second," I said, looking at Danielle.

I noticed she was holding her bag close to her and looking everywhere nervously, like she was hiding something. "What's wrong with you?" I asked. She snapped her face to me and smiled, "Nothing, but can you hurry?"

I sighed and finally found the key to unlock the door and let us in. "So what was your idea to make me feel something?" I asked while putting my things down and looking at Danielle.

She stood there, messing with her bag, then looked at me. "Okay... I'll tell you or more like show you, but you have to promise to agree to do this," she asked, staring at me seriously.

What do I have to lose, I thought to myself. "Okay, fine, I promise," I said in a calm tone.

She smiled, "Okay, great! Now can you please go sit down while I put in the movie?"

I did as she asked and walked over to the couch and sat down. I then watched Danielle put her bag down by the TV, then quickly closed all the blinds, making the living room pitch dark. This is odd.

"Are your parents home?" she asked, looking at me.

"No," I told her.

"Okay, good." She then dug in her bag and grabbed a movie, but I couldn't tell what it was because she quickly took the CD out and put it in the DVD player. She then walked over and sat by me on the couch.

"What movie are we watching?" I asked.

"You'll see... But I'm confident that this will make you feel something," she said, half-smiling.

I turned my attention to the TV and saw a woman talking on a phone. Then another woman walked in, making the one on the phone hang up and turn her attention to her. They then started having a conversation with each other. This is supposed to help me?

Then, all of a sudden, those women somehow started kissing. They then stopped and walked into a bedroom and continued their kissing. Okay, what's going on?

Their kissing stopped, and they started taking their clothes off slowly until they were naked. They then went back to kissing but did it while lying on the bed.

"Why are we watching porn, Danielle?" I asked, turning and looking at her, but she was too into the show, watching with wide eyes. I turned back to the TV and just continued watching.

The two women were now sucking and touching each other everywhere, causing them to moan. The only thing I'm feeling right now is uncomfortable... But my heart started beating a bit faster.

I continued watching them touching each other more, and the only thing you could hear was nothing but moaning from the TV.

I then heard an annoying breathing sound. What's that noise? I looked over at Danielle and noticed she was breathing heavily. I'm going to get a drink, so I won't have to hear her or watch this.

I got up and started walking around her but couldn't see where I was walking and ended up falling to the ground, dragging her on top of me.

Oww! That's the second time I did that.

"That hurt," I said, fixing to get up but stopped when I looked in Danielle's eyes. Something sparked when I looked in them, but I couldn't tell what it was.

Danielle, who was still on top of me, intertwined her fingers in mine and started slowly leaning towards me. I laid there not knowing what to do. What's happening?! Why's my heart racing? Why do I feel warm everywhere!? Too many emotions are happening right now... I need to stop this.

She was inches away, but like all the other times, she was interrupted by the sound of the front door opening and keys dropping to the ground.

Danielle and I sat up quickly and saw my parents by the doorway, gasping. Thank goodness.

"What's going on?" my mom asked with wide eyes.

"Danielle and I were watching porn, that is until you guys showed up," I answered bluntly.

"I see that," my mom said, looking at the TV and then at us, still on the ground, shocked. "But why is she on top of you?"

I looked at Danielle, then at my parents. "I tripped and she fell on me. Can you get off?" I asked, looking at Danielle.

She stared at me, then shook her head. "Yeah... Um, sorry."

"Can you guys turn this off, please? It's pretty loud," my dad said, shutting the door and guiding my mom to the kitchen to calm her down.

I watched them leave the room, then I looked at Danielle, who was quickly gathering her things and taking the movie out of the DVD player. I guess I should tell her that I did feel something. "I felt something," I said, looking at Danielle, making her stop.

She turned to me and sheepishly smiled. "Really?"

"Yeah. It was a strange feeling. It was definitely new." She got up and walked towards me.

"What did it feel like?"

"I felt all warm and tingly," I said harshly. "I didn't really like it."

Danielle stood there staring, then all of a sudden burst out laughing. "Haerin... You got turned on," she said between laughs.

I stood there thinking. I got turned on? The first thing or a new thing I felt was being aroused. That's embarrassing.

She quit laughing, then walked over to the couch and grabbed the rest of her things. "At least we got somewhere today," she said, smiling. She turned and opened the door, fixing to leave, but stopped. She turned around quickly and jogged to me, kissed me on the cheek, and left.

I grabbed my cheek, watching as Danielle left, leaving me staring at nothing but the door. I should've told her I felt something else too. It was when we stared into each other's eyes.

"Haerin, can your mom and I have a word with you?" my dad asked, leaning on the wall. I put my hand down and turned and looked at my dad.

"Fine," I said, mentally rolling my eyes.

I already knew what this would be about. This is going to be fun... Not, I thought as I walked into the kitchen.