Emotionless | DAERIN

21: the kiss

Danielle's POV

I don't know how long I can take this. It's so hard being around Haerin knowing she doesn't remember me. It's even harder seeing her and Hanni together. I hate how Hanni is the one who gets to kiss her and hug her, while I'm over here trying to be strong and not pay attention to all that.

I also noticed that Haerin doesn't like any of that, but doesn't care enough to say anything about it. I've known Haerin long enough to know what she likes and what she doesn't, and I know she doesn't like Hanni as much as Hanni likes her, but she doesn't know that. I also know that Haerin loves me as much as I love her, but doesn't care enough to realize it. Gosh, she's so hard-headed... that's one reason why I love her.

"Umm, excuse me, can you please stop staring at me? You're making me a little uncomfortable." I looked over and saw a nerdy but cute girl looking at me.

I shook my head and looked at her, "Sorry about that, I was just daydreaming about my future bride, who doesn't know she's my bride yet," I said, sighing and resting my chin in my hand.

She blushed and spoke up softly again, "Well, can you do that without staring at me?" I smiled to myself. Wow, she's kind of adorable, but nothing compared to my Haerin.

"Umm, you're doing it again," the girl spoke up. I rolled my eyes and looked away. After another twenty dreadful minutes, the bell rang, and I quickly gathered my things so I could catch up with Haerin, who would be by herself today because Hanni was absent from school.

After gathering the last of my things, I fast-walked out the door, but accidentally bumped into someone who was standing in the middle of the hall.

"Hey there, beautiful. Where are you headed in such a hurry?" I made a face at Soobin.

"My bad for running into you. Now, if you'll excuse me, I'll be on my way." I began walking away, but he stepped in front of me.

"Whoa, hold it there. Can we talk for a second?"

I rolled my eyes and checked the time on my phone and saw I still had a good 10 minutes before our next class started. "Fine, you got 3 minutes."

He smiled, "Well, I just wanted to say how sorry I am for being such a dick lately. I just like you so much." Yeah, he likes me so much he would go out and hurt the only person I love, because he's crazy.

"If you're trying to say what I think you're going to say, then no! I'm not getting together with you, because yeah, like you said, you're a dick, and people like you don't change. Now, if you'll excuse me, your time's up, and I have better things to do." I gave him a smile and quickly walked away and headed straight to Haerin, knowing exactly where she would be.

I walked outside, and there she was, sitting under the tree. "Hey beautiful!" I shouted while smiling and waving at her. She quickly looked up and shook her head when she saw me approaching.

"What do you want, Danielle?"

"Can I not spend time with my favorite person in the whole world?"

"As long as you don't try anything, then I guess you can sit with me, but no talking or being annoying because I'm busy." I smiled and nodded my head. Sitting in calming silence with her is just as good as talking to her, maybe better, because I can study and adore all her features.

I watched as she was tapping her pencil, trying to figure out problems in her workbook, and I guess she noticed because she said something, "Stop staring at me, you're bothering me."

I smiled again, "I can't help it. You're so beautiful!" I grabbed my heart and fell back in the grass, being dramatic.

"Yeah, and you're so weird," she said as she went back to working.

"You're so mean," I pouted as I sat back up. She looked up at me again, and I could tell she was a little annoyed, but it went away when I noticed she was staring at me a little longer than usual. "What is it?" She leaned closer to me, then lifted her hand and pulled something out of my hair.

"This was bothering me, just like you are right now." She held the piece of grass in her hand, waiting for me to grab it. I grabbed the grass, but kept holding my hand in hers a little longer.

"Thanks for getting that, but it's a little weird because, knowing you, you would've just left it."

She looked at our hands, then at me, "I don't know why I did it." We sat there staring at each other, and I could tell there was some confusion and curiosity hidden in her eyes. I took the chance and began slowly leaning towards her until we were inches apart. She still just kept staring at me, so before she could move away, I quickly but softly planted a kiss on her lips.

She sat there staring at me, not even blinking, but then, to my surprise, she closed her eyes, leaned forward a bit, and kissed me back. I immediately closed my eyes again to enjoy this moment.

Wait, wait!!? Is this really happening... again?! Haerin is kissing me back. I must be in heaven.

After kissing for a few more seconds, I broke off our kiss and rested my forehead on hers. "Haerin, I love you, and I don't care that you're in a relationship or what you and Hanni say... I love you, and I know you feel the same." My heart was racing after saying those words because I had no clue how she would react, and because that kiss was amazing.

She still just sat there staring at me, then said, "You're so annoying." She grabbed her things and quickly got up, but stumbled to her knees and fell against the tree.

"Whoa, are you okay?" I asked worriedly.

"Yeah, I'm okay... I just got up too quickly." The bell rang, and she gathered her things again and headed to her next class.

"That was weird. I wonder what just happened to her?" I said to myself. I too got up, grabbed my things, and decided to forget about what just happened to her for a second, because I wanted to think about our kiss we just had. Our first kiss, to be exact. Okay, I know she felt something in that kiss; I know she does have feelings for me that she keeps pushing aside.

Gosh, I'm head over heels for her.

I practically skipped to class, forgetting about the rest of the day, thinking about nothing but the kiss and her little fall she had earlier.

Once school was over, I walked to my locker to grab my book and headed home when I saw Haerin, who saw me too. She looked away from me and fast-walked out of the school. That's weird. I wonder why she did that? Maybe the kiss turned her on?