"Beep, beep, beep. " sigh another day another terrible day of life, "text from boyfriend, I love how are u this morning? ", (inside my head) hehe terrible, texts back " I'm doing amazing".i hate lying to him but no one cares abt how I actually feel so it's fine *looks in mirror* like how could anyone love all that ugliness I just don't get it then again life's a mystery, hi Franklin ready to eat c'mon let's go.
Morning mom, "morning beya how'd you sleep?" "Fine what's for breakfast? " your favorite pancakes and sausage ", " oh sweet" ooh actually I gotta go can't be late for the bus bye mom love you, "love you to beya have a good day", (closes door) yea in my dreams there's no such thing as a good day when your depressed all the time and when you have to act like everything is completely fine but that's the story of my life it always is been like this for years but yet I get through each and every crappy fucking day. (Text from babe-rafe, " hey you excited for memorial weekend?", "no I won't be able to see you🥲", " you'll be ok my love", "💛", he yea right.
At school
Morning everybody how are y'all doing in this amazing morning?, me-terrible like always, bsf- good tired though, hm same as every morning y'all are no fun (ringgggggg) op anyways cya guys later, bye, bye, cya daniel, yea bye AA, (skip to the end of the day at home) text from babe-rafe "hey I'm really sorry and ik this is rlly random but I'm ending things with you I'm sorry". Great just great I knew it would be a shitty day but I didn't know this would happen, texts back- wow ok bye. Ha I knew it I knew this was gonna happen how could I be so stupid I actually believed he'd stay god I'm such an idiot, why does everyone just end up proving my point and they all deny it but it always comes to the same ending every single fucking time "sigh I need help"
Sis-hey you ok I heard you uh crying what happened?
Oh uh yea sorry just um rafe broke up with me
Sis-are you fucking serious why?
He didn't really say but uh yea
Sis- that's so fucking stupid
Yeh ik
Sis- you gonna be ok?
Maybe, probably, actually I have no idea
1 month later June 4
Omg Keke guess what
"What? "
Actually never mind
"Noooo please tell me"
Nah I'm good
"Bruh"
Sorry love you
Trysten- hey Bella what's this I'm hearing about you having a crush
Uh uh I um I have no idea what your talking about
Trysten- Mhm Mhm sure you don't you better text it to me please
Ugh fine I will
Trysten-yay thank you
"The end of the day"
Trysten-wheres the text Bella I don't see it
Omg fine it's my crush is it's u........ Hello?
Trysten-hi🤭
How do you feel?
Trysten-cool
Cool wym cool?
Trysten- idk what else I'm supposed to say
Well I know a question you could ask me.
And that's when it hit me that feeling in your stomach when you just did something so risk taking that your scared to pick your phone back up I've liked trysten since last year and but of course I had to hide those feelings deep down and I did and it worked for the longest time but now that Rafe broke up with me I found hope in trysten let's see how this goes
Trysten- is it a question that you would say yes to?
Possibly
Trysten-do you want to?
Ofc I want to do you want to
Trysten-lol I wouldn't have asked if I didn't
Good point then my answer is yes
Trysten-ok cool well I gtg I'll talk to you later
Ok bye
Trysten-bye
Omg that was totally unexpected I mean I am literally shocked I can't believe he said yes. Now this was the moment I was full of happiness and love was pouring everywhere but little did I know that all my over thinking would come back to bite me in the ass I should've seen it coming but ofc I hadn't because once something in my life goes amazing something or someone always has to fuck things up And so instead of bottling up all my feelings this time I decided to tell one of my friends Austin but what I didn't know is that we would become closer than we've ever been before.
Hey Austin I have a problem
"Hey yea what's wrong?"
I've just been over thinking a lot lately about me and trysten's relationship and I'm just really freaking out right now and idk what to do
"Ok well first of all calm down I'm sure everything's fine what made you start to have these thoughts in the first place?"
Well it's just anytime something amazing happens to me it doesn't last very long and that's part of the reason why I'm freaking out because idk I'm just really scared right now
"Listen he is different from other guys like completely different he doesn't care about looks and I'm sorry guys have hurt you no one deserves that but you gotta look forward ya know there a reason why the windshield is bigger than the review mirror"
Your right your absolutely right I need to calm down
"Yea see everything is gonna be fine and you should talk to him"
Kay I will rn thank for all your help
"Yea no problem"
Ok I need to calm down everything's fine you just need to talk to him should be easy enough but what if he gets weireded out no no no text him you got this ok here we go
Hey trysten
"Hey how are you?"
I'm doing ok ig
"Why what happened?"
Just over thinking a bit
