Lovesick. | Sam Golbach + Reader

chapter 5 - thoughts

[your POV]
i take a quick glance at sam, before the gaze of mine fixates on the ground, daring myself to not make eye contact with him for a split minute. he then shifts over to face me, alongside sitting on his bed with me. "so uh.. what do you wanna do?" he asks in his soft voice, him biting his bottom lip sternly. "i don't know.. what do you wanna do?" i reply to his inquiry, with a soft tone in my voice, keeping our conversation in a meekly tone. "i was thinking maybe.. watching a movie or something. but not like a date night, just.. you know. watching something." he responds with a lower voice as he's about to be ending his sentence.

"sure, i don't mind." i post in a soft hum, with my deep voice that it is. "cool. i'll just head to the bathroom real quick and i'll be back in a minute." he nods his head smoothly, sensing a slight hint in his face that he could be overcome by something definitely that's been bothering him. yet, i try to ignore that.

[sam's POV]
"cool. i'll just head to the bathroom real quick and i'll be back in a minute." i say, with a neutral facial expression that's scattering on my face. an odd feeling strikes me right in the stomach, but not a bad one or a good one either. i run up to the bathroom from our house, and turn on the tap, cool water flowing down into the sink. i shove my hands into the water, before placing them on my face, slight water dripping down out of it, blemishing my shirt. what is wrong with me? why am i like this? am i.. am i a homosexual? no.. that can't be. am i? why is y/n so handsome.. he's one of the prettiest boys i've ever seen, and i'm slowly becoming more and more attracted to him. what am i gonna do? should i talk to him? would he.. would he be upset with me?.. my mind's racing with different thoughts.

i get out of the bathroom, making my way all over to my room, and hopping down next to y/n. to the prettiest boy.. oh shit, maybe i shouldn't think it that loud in my head. i can be an idiot sometimes, but i just wanna spend time with him, he's my best friend. and i'd do anything for him to be happy. but i'm just gonna roll with it. i grasp the remote, keeping it in my hands for a little while, clicking on the netflix button. "what do you wanna watch?" i question my friend.

[your POV]
sam turns over his head to face me, asking me a question. "you wanna watch [favorite series/movie]?" i interrogate the boy sitting down next to me. his head pans over to me, peeping at his eyes with a scintilla gleaming in it. he has very nice eyes. before he speaks, he crinkles his bottom lip gently. "of course!" his words escape through his lips relentlessly, searching for the favorite series or even movie i prefer watching. as he finally sought for it, he clicks on the button from the center of the remote, and plays the series/movie, plopping the remote down. whilst the intro credits roll in on the screen, i feel my eyes slightly heavy, but i don't mind it, i ignore it.

during the mid of the series/movie, i can feel my eyes heavier each passing minute, slowly but surely closing my eyes so i can enter in a good sleep. it's pretty unexpected to fall asleep in his bed, cause i do at my house. as it befalls for me to almost fall asleep, i eventually do it. it's most likely a merit, i finally fall asleep next to my crush.

[sam's POV]
i look at y/n from time to time, a small smile showing bluntly but genuinely on my face, the corners of my mouth inflecting up. but i sense a large wave of electricity washing over us, feeling my body tingling slightly on the surface. after a couple of minutes, i notice y/n fallen asleep on my bed. he looks so adorable when he sleeps. my cheeks are flushing with a luminous shade of red on them, wondering the possibility of holding his hand.. wait i shouldn't do it just yet.. should i?..

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