Lovesick. | Sam Golbach + Reader

chapter 10 - kiss?

[your POV]
i awake next to sam, held close, arms locked around my waistline, his hands tied around it. he must've slept like a baby, he unwittingly held me. it sends me different mingled emotions, but it feels.. nice. i've never had anyone hold me like this before, just me holding onto my own pillow at my house. but it honestly feels good. a faint feeling surrounds my vision, causing me to see everything blurry. my eyes have become dilated for a moment, trying to process the touch on my skin. his arms stuck around my waist.

he wakes up as well, his eyes shuddering half parted open. he stares at me deeply in the eyes, but doesn't make a single murmur or sound. "good morning y/n.." he whispered softly, his deep, morning voice echoing through the room, groggily. his hand then tiredly slips out of my waistline, and brings it up to his face, his fingers grating it against his eyes drily.

shivers run down my spine hearing him saying my name, feeling an intensity of blended emotions that flow through my corpus. a senseless silence lies, before i speak up. "good morning." my deep, morning voice sizzles in the room, doing the exact same act as him, rubbing my eyes. my eyes then motion away towards him, glancing at his beautiful eyes. "stop looking at me, i'm gonna blush.." sam publishes, a weak reddish shade enframing his adorable cheeks. i chuckle slightly but softly. "so what? you're so cute when you're red." i speak admittedly, trying to engage myself into his solo conversation.

he starts hiding his head into hands, noticing the puny redness that couches his cheeks, making me chortle quite a bit. i sit up in bed, my eyes misplacing to face his. my gaze then moves into places of his bedroom, being all tired and groggy, trying to shake it off and actually awake. "you don't mind if i use your toothbrush, do you?" my deep groggy voice escapes through my lips, word by word spoken. "yeah, sure, i don't mind. i'll wait." sam's tired tone rustles in the room, him humming a response. "ok then." i let him know, my voice being quite above a whisper.

[time skip]

after concluding my morning routine, i take rhythmic steps into his bedroom, kneeling down to the ground next to my backpack full of useful items, picking out some clothes to cloth myself up with today's outfit. then, after draping myself into clothes, my eyes lie upon his, treading outside of his bathroom door, locking it with the metallic doorbell. "oh, you changed already?" i vocalize in a less tired voice, my tongue stuck on my top lip, before it slips back into my mouth. "yeah, just did." a warm face expression sends me cordial senses just by observing it on his face. some sort of peculiar tingling strikes right upon me, raiding into my stomach.

"uh.. wanna go outside?" he murmurs mildly, offering me to go on a walk with him. i accept his request by nodding my head smoothly, my eyes lying upon his, meeting his them from a distance. "lets go then." i tilt my head to the side drastically, my arms crossed over upon my chest. i take my pouch hanging by the front door where's situated, grazing it into my own hands, before sliding it atop of me, as it slightly conceals almost my disguised body of clothes.

when we both step outside of the house, we wave our hands to colby, a sign that we're going on a walk, like we usually do, but mostly on evenings. we arrive at a tranquil field, trees integrating the mushy, shortened grass. i take a glimpse of sam's face, his smile emanating radiance of light. the rays of the sun glistens the both of us, causing us to see blurry slightly because of the emitting light. before we perch down under some eminent tree, we place a stratum made of a web textile down on the ground, so we can be seated comfortably. after we do that, we finally lie down onto the stratum, and blast about anything that comes to our creative minds.

"i like that." his finger raises up, pointing out my colorful brochure, he tunes in with me. "you do?" a slight, tiny smile brightens upon my face, a little chuckle escaping out through my lips. the tree fizzles slowly from side to side from the cool wind that's breezing into the brisk atmosphere. "yeah, man. it's cool." he laughs silently to his self, admiring the brochure attached to my outfit, down aside to my pants. he nears me a little closer, untold details about him i can notice.

"you know.. i always have something on my mind when i'm with you.." he exclaims his own thoughts out loud, noticing the breeze blowing his hair to the cool air. "what's up?" i ask him faithfully, lied down on the stratum, being a little comfortable. "it's.. it's.. it's just.. i don't know how to put into the right words." his voice trembling a little that i can hear, deciding to sit up to hear him lucidly. i glare over at him with so much curiosity and mystery that's within me, wondering for his next move.

"it's just that.. i'm.. you know.. ever since i came out to you guys.. it's wasn't because of my sexuality.. well.. partially. it's because.. i.. i like you a lot y/n. i like you more than just a friend. and what i'm feeling about you isn't platonic, it's 100% romantic.." he finally admits his confession that's been corrupting his mind lately. my eyes widen with shock, a faint shade of pink painting my cheeks. "you.. you like me?.." i ask him in a low, soft voice. "yes, y/n, i like you." sam publishes. his eyes being lied upon mine continuously, i decide to misplace a little closer to him. "is it ok if.. if we.. share a kiss?.." he interrogates me, as a hum in response. "yeah.. why not." i post to him. "i like you too man.." i declare my immense pure love for him.

he starts leaning in a little closer to my face, until our faces touch together. as that encounters, i become a blushing mess as i lean in a little closer to his face, him noticing the pink shade coloring my cheeks. "you're so cute when you're flustered." he adds in a sly tone, chuckling amusingly. i chuckle as well lightly, our faces now practically touching. this constant battlefield of wanting to kiss him comes to an end, before i launch my lips against his. his lips have been pressed against mine, feeling the warmth and softness radiating from them. i feel my heart thumping so fast and so loudly, about to explode with so many emotions.

i'm taken aback by his smooth soft lips, driving me crazy, effortlessly kissing him a little deeper. i stray my fingers onto his cheeks, my lips amongst his, turning the kiss passionate. he kisses me back lovingly, his tongue slowly entering into my mouth, exploring it before meeting my tongue, as they both dance. my eyes closed the moment we've kissed, his eyes widening a little, before he's closed them too. i can't believe we did it, my fat love for him continues to grow bigger and bigger whilst we're kissing. feeling so much intensity and the electric string unwind invisibly in the air. i deliver him a silent invitation for my tongue to explore his mouth, him letting me do it. we did it. we shared a kiss.

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