Lovesick. | Sam Golbach + Reader

chapter 8 - coming out?

[sam's POV]
i hold eye contact with y/n as he speaks to me. my glance focused to the floor, not making any direct harangue just yet. my gaze then turns back up to him, feeling a slight conversion in my mood. my face now amends into a more upset expression, that i can feel it within myself. i take a huge breath exhaling it out of me before talking. "you know.. these past weeks.. i've felt.. different.. in a way. like, a conjecture building up within me, something i feel like i cannot escape. you see, i've tried denying this.. feeling but it seems like it won't go away. ever. but now that i'm with you, i really needed to tell you that.. i'm.. you're.. i can't find the right words, i'm sorry.." i shake my head off to the sides.

i take accountability for my words, like something keeping me hostage from saying it. an enormous burden being corrupted by the negativity upon my soul. i sigh shakily, my leg quivering on the surface, my hand reposing onto it. he hugs his arm around my back, his hand held against my shoulder, as a gentle symbol of evidence that he's listening and awaits for me to speak up when i'm ready. "you know, this feeling.. it grows stronger and more intense each time i'm with you, and i tried my best to keep it low but.. it just won't stop growing. um.. look, y/n.. i should just tell you that.. i'm sickly in love with you. 100% romantically, and it's not even platonic anymore." i finally admit it. "i've realized that.. my sexuality orientation is changed.. i think.. i think i'm gay.." i confess my deepest, most profound hidden secret of mine to him, now unwinded on show.

[your POV]
"hey.. it's ok.. i'm here for you dude. i'm glad you could tell me.. and.. i'm in love with you too.." i mutter almost inaudible words under my solemn breath, a tiny grin evolving onto my lips. my heart starts fluttering with so much mixed emotions for him, being surprisingly proud of him coming out to me. "wait.. you are too?.." his voice softens, yet still slightly flimsy. he takes a glare upon me into my eyes, my lips being slightly parted open, blink closed. the battleground constantly playing in my mind comes to an end, fighting with myself to build up courage and confidence to hold his hand.

i finally place my hand atop his, comforting him that coming out to his friends is actually not a bad thing, and actually an ideal mode to come out. "hey, i support you too. i'm glad you could tell us." colby joins in the conversation, as he's been hearing us individually from his room. a small smile shows on colby's face, also being proud of his friend coming out. "thanks guys, you've helped me overcome this overwhelming feeling in me. but especially for y/n, because.. yeah." sam's grin embellishes his face, admiring it pleasingly. he finally counteracted his undeniable romantic feelings.

"you two should go on a date sometime." colby instinctively utters, with a cunning smirk being shown spreading across his face. my sight then moves to sam's face, noticing how red he is after what colby has just said to us. sam's cheeks are burning with a hot red tint, as his smile becomes a little awkward as the conversation goes differently now. "maybe.. if he wants." he replies to colby, hiding his flushing cheeks in his hands. i find it cute. a soft smile plays on my lips as this happens, my cheeks turning a glowing pink nuance. yet, i don't have the need to hide my face because of that, i'm mostly used to it overall.

word count: 636 words