The younger Grimborn (sequel)

Bonus!

So, the newest chapter is on the way and this one isn't officially part of the story, but I still wanted to publish today to celebrate....

I PASSED! Guys, I made it! Thank you so much for all your crossed fingers and good luck wishes, I finally finished school! It feels unreal, but I feel so relieved at the same time. 

I can't wait to have time to write!

As for now, to celebrate, I've read back to all the comments both here and on quotev and realized there's one thing that's standing out from everything: People ship Thyra and Hiccup, and find it immensely frustrating that they are being so dense XD

So... AS A BONUS AND NOT REAL... here you go ;D

Diary notes

Ever since I came back with the riders, I've noticed a change. It's something that hasn't been there before, but now I can't get rid of it. A feeling, perhaps, or a shift in dynamic...

Everyone was a little bit more on their toes, trying their best not to bring Viggo up, or trying to cheer me up whenever I looked like I needed it, but Hiccup has been going a little further with that. It's sweet. He always ensures I'm alright, offers help, and offers to talk. He's always close around, takes me on flights to calm my mind, or simply holds me when I feel lonely.

I don't think he does it entirely on purpose. He just has an interest in the same things as me, which is why we're often in the same place. And he is there for me, like any good friend would. However, that does make me realize something. 

Every time he isn't around, I start to miss him. I want to ask him things, and share my discoveries with him. And he listens, when he's around, which is most of the time. But when he isn't, I miss him. 

I don't think I missed him this much before. Maybe it's the loss of my brother, maybe I'm trying to make up for it. But then why does it hurt when I see him with Astrid? what sense does that make?

We are still friends, it doesn't change anything.

We still have fun, we still laugh together, fly together. We still train with our dragons... Everything is exactly like it used to be before I left, except maybe that we seem to be a little closer. 

I don't understand my own feelings, and it's frustrating me. It's less frustrating when I have him around, then I'm happy. It's strange how the simple act of watching him with Toothless or any other dragon already puts a smile on my face. But in my defense, it's incredibly cute.

He isn't stressed when we're training dragons, he's happy, and that makes me happy. So why do I feel so sad when I see him happy with Astrid? Shouldn't that make me happy too?

You're jealous

Shouldn't I feel relieved that he manages to smile even though Krogan is like a looming threat darkening the horizon?

You like him

Shouldn't I be more concerned about said threat? Why do I feel like I only care about him, why do I forget everything else when he's around?

You're in love

Annoyed, I slam my diary shut and place it away from prying eyes. The tiny voice in the back of my head keeps repeating the same thing over and over again. I refuse to listen to it.