Hare Krishna readers. This is not an update.
I sincerely apologise for not uploading any chapters in a long time. I haven't been having the best time to write anything nowadays. I feel too much lonely and depressed.
I'm dealing with depression and so I haven't been able to update you guys about a single thing.
My parents are continuously asking me to opt for Commerce in class 11th and 12th. But I can't. Maths isn't my subject. I scored 65% in my 10th boards.
And I swear I didn't study anymore than the last 4-5 days alloted for preparation. 78, 85, and 67 for English, Hindi, and Social Science respectively out of 100.
I got 50 for Maths and 48 for Science. By Maths, do you think I will be able to take Commerce? My dream is to clear UPSC, so I have a clear view point, take Arts.
But mumma and daddy are asking me to opt for Commerce if by chance I'm not able to clear UPSC I will be able to do atleast something. And note one thing, that too with Maths.
Today I checked it online, that both non maths and non commerce students can opt for CA examination. It's equally hard and won't matter whether I take Commerce or not.
But I don't know how to persuade them to let me take Arts. See guys, actually in the past 3 months since my last exam, I did nothing but chilling or staying depressed.
And I didn't study anything related to Commerce or Maths. So how will I be able to give the UT tests when I get to school?? And in September there will be Half yearly. So how possibly will I be able to pass the exams that too with Commerce jiska khaak mere dimaag main nahi hai?
Banking etc isn't certainly my thing. Bhai merko yeh nahi pata karna kya hota hai kya karungi?
I am well with Social Science and Languages, as you can see my 10th results. So I better prefer opting for it.
Aur itna Vishwas hai mujhe khudpe ki 2-3 baar main UPSC toh main clear kar lungi. Bas yeh nahi pata ki mumma daddy ko manau kaise.
Please suggest guys! Haath jod ke vinti hai.
And about the chapters, I week aayenge. Pakka nahi, but I'm trying to update. I hope you will understand my view point.
Radhe Radhe!
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