Diary Of A Lonely Daughter

Congrats Mom

DIARY ENTRY - 1

Congratulations mom. You are successful. You have been successful in making me hate myself. That too for my face. You have been successful in making me believe that I have an ugly face. Something which I can't even do anything about. My pimples, my acne, my oddly big and fat nose, my slightly larger lower lip. I don't even know what else is there in me that makes me look ugly. I had never even realised it until you pointed it out for me. In fact, you have said this so repeatedly that it is now fixed in my head and I cannot shake it off from my mind however much I try.

Please do point out some more ugly features of mine so that I have one more reason to feel disgusted by myself. Not to mention that I already feel a lot disgusted whenever I look at myself in the mirror. Dear God, I wish all the mirrors in the world shatter into pieces.

I can't even say that God has made me this way. No one can say that because according to my "Great Mother" I have allegedly done that to my own face. I have now realised that you know more about my face. Even more than I myself know about my own face. Wow. That's so great, right? I think I can't even use the word "allegedly" now because you have said it so many times that now even I have started to believe that. And, I feel even more disgusted about myself just thinking about it.

Thank you for pointing out all these insecurities which I didn't even know existed. Thank you for making me believe that I am actually ugly, revolting, nauseating, repelling, sickening, gross, disgusting and... I have exhausted my vocabulary that I can't even think of more words to describe myself.

I am tired. It's 2:48 a.m. I'm going to sleep now.

Good night my dear diary,
Isabella

I have purposely made the first chapter short. I will try to make the upcoming chapters a little longer.

And let me tell you that the whole book is not based only on Isabella's diary entries. There's more to it. ;)

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