I am happy that we manage to generate stable income now. We received help from everyone. I should do this before but I am on my run. I need to hide . Now since i cant run anymore, I ask my friend to help me promote the cafe. Since it for charity, everyone try to help and support me and my new family.
How Is it, I ask my mom . I cant wait to wait for her feed back. Do you like it mom, I ask again. She just laugh and give me two tumbs up. Really, I ask her and hug her gently. I am so proud of you baby she said. I dont know weather he know the truth of not, but she now one of the regular volunteers who come to help. I love to be here. I can meet my family happily here. My busy dad, also come and visit to help. My new family are shocked when they see my family but they just keep pretending that they don't notice anything. I just keep silent. It a secret that I will bury with my own life.
Since we don't have many customer today, I sit with the kids and teach them math. I really love math. I really love this, except for being phi bible husband I think my life is perfect now. I still confuse why he force me to marry him when he clearly hate me. I dont even serve when he eat now because he will lost his appetite. I help with the house chores. I do everything I can . I try to be invisible. Since our bakery start making stable income, I use my royalty to pay for phi mile. I dont know how much more I need to pay. I wont receive the orphanage house for free. I sacrifice my freedom but only for the kids safety . I agree to his condition because I want they stay together and have each other back. Its really pitiful when you are alone in this big world. I promise I will work till death and will pay for the house.
Are you okay, house helper ask me when I hurt myself. It my fault. I should focus i said and hold my injured hand. They look worry. Dont worry phi, i used to this, I said and smile to them. Today when the helper plan to clean the garden I offer my help. I try to cut the tree but unintentionally hurt my hand. I let my helper clean my hand at the yard. All look worry, except me who just smile to them.
Bright, phi bible call me a bit loud. I quickly stand beside the house helper and hide my hand. I am sorry, I said quickly. I dont know what I do wrong, but I getting scare. All helper now leave us alone. Let me see it, phi bible said softly. I am shaking. I dont know why I am getting scare. All the memory come back to me. He used to push me and hurt me. Ge hate when i survived from any accident. I really try hard to calm myself. I am sorry that I only hurt, I said slowly. He must expecting me to die. I am sorry, I said again. I always feel regret when i keep survive in any accident. I wont kill my self because I have big debt. He must be annoyed and hope the worst for me.
I am sorry, I said again. Please, phi bible said and hug me tight. Please , he said again. I really confuse. What he plead for. I dont say anything. I even scare to breath. He hate it when he need to share the air with me. Please , he said again.
In my confuse state, I let him drag me to the house. This is weird. He let me sit on his bed. I felt uncomfortable. He hate me to touch anything belong to him. That why I choose to sleep at balcony. He try to treat my hand. It just small cut. He clean my hand. I can see his hand shaking. He must hate to see my scared hand, a gift that he give for me on our engagement day. I slowly pull my hand.
It okay phi, It just small I cut, I said and quickly leave phi bible who now kneeling quietly. What happen to him lately. He is acting weird.
I don't even care about my cut. It nothing compare to what I face before. So again I am helping the helper to prepare for dinner. We now waiting for phi bible. He rarely comeback this early.
While waiting me and helper talk about everything. I refuse my helper help but they insist that I need to treat my cut. Dont worry, how big the cut is, it will be heal naturally. Just wait a bit, I said. And leaving scar like this, my helper ask and look at my scar. No, this is not scar I said. They look at me. This is my reminder, I said. Or should I call it eye opener I ask more to myself. All of them look confuse. Forget about, it time for me to look for the master , I said and chuckle. I walk to phi bible room, but stop when phi bible already at the table. Everyone are shock. We quickly prepare his dinner. After helping , I quietly walk to the garden. I dont want to disturb phi bible so I sit here and talking with the kids.
It was quiet night, I quickly open my phone and start to write a song.
I am happy for sudden inspiration. I need to create good song. I need to pay my debt. I just smile. I must be blessed with bad luck. I am live In debt all mylife.
Now, I am used to share the room even I try to become invisible. I knocked and open the door slowly. I queitly go to the balcony. I try to develop new pastry for the cafe. So i just scroll the Internet looking for the tips. Normally I already sleep when phi mile come back from office. So it a bit stressful for me.
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29.20.24
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