One more thing

-part one-

It was like he was actually in love with me.

June was his name and mine was valentine. we've been best friends since childhood and now we're adults, i never thought He'd be the one to swipe my virginity away.  i don't mean REAL adults just were in high school now so.

Even though everyone knew because of the way he would crease my cheek before walking away to his own class 5 ways down the hall from me. or the time when he lifted my chin because i had mascara smudged underneath my eye. i've always hated romance. hated it , i hated it so much i would've worn a bright green wig that read "i love cute puppies" across it. but that's besides the point. if i had to describe june it'd be : stick up player jock stupid cheater play boy boy toy muscular beautiful gree— okay that's enough he's no where NEAR my type. not even if i were drunk he'd be able to get at me.

I'm not your normal person, cringe i know but i'm really not. i'm homeschooled and i'm really smart and so my mom signed me up to be a tutor in every subject. so when i said june would walk me off to another class i meant i'd be in a class not learning but helping. i'm in one class with june and he completely ignores me. i don't know if it's because of my short brown hair and big glasses or because i wear baggy clothes. i don't see the problem. i mean i never felt ugly. i mean yeah i'd go to the bathroom see girls fixing their make up and fix their enlarged chest and long hair.. maybe they did have porcelain doll like features and that's probably what made me different from everyone else but.. that could've changed. right..?

I know my mom thinks i'm beautiful but i've always wanted attention from a man. a man who could love me not a rapist or anything. well i got what i wanted but not who i'd think.

I was at junes place. his parents were out on a trip and wouldn't be back until sunday, it's tuesday and it was late but since my mom is close with them she offered to house sit but she sleeps really early. it was 11:02pm and i just finished helping him with his math homework and he looked at me. i noticed he was staring the whole time but still this was more than a normal stare. he looked like a predator and i was the prey. he lifted my chin and smirked. "up close you're prettier than when i'm far away." i couldn't help but blush and i think my heart started to beat. i didn't know what came over me but at that moment i wish it was him. i did a lame smile and before i knew it he was kissing me. the warmth of his body heat moving through my shirt and whole body was just thrilling. i wrapped around his built frame and my hands moved through his curly brown hair with ease. i felt his hand going up my shirt that said "i'm okay you're not" in the middle as he pulled away from the steamy kiss we both started to huff and his knee went in between my legs i looked up at him with a desperate face. he smiled again and my stomach started to jump around. he then took his shirt off. he was strong. and i mean STRONG he had a 6 pack smooth frame no hair, well under his arms but his body was empty and the line going down to

The line of hair going down into his pants had me mesmerized. i'm not sure if it was a sign he was big down there or if he was small. he took my shirt off and i slid my pants off. "wow valentine your body is.. it's beautiful." he leaned down and kissed my collar bone then moved to my chest. what am i doing? why am i letting this happen.

I couldn't help but want more. i looked down at him as he kissed down my waist line and he looked up at me as if he was gonna eat me alive, "can you handle two fingers?" i nodded. he slid his hand inside my panties and he slipped two fingers in. all i could hear were my own moans and deep breaths. it felt so good, maybe because i've never done this before but june didn't disappoint. maybe that's where he got the finger master around school from. i knew i wouldn't be able to make anything official with him. i'd get played or cheated on. he also was dating this jacky girl and she's crazy. the more sexual we got and the more passion and tension filled the air i couldn't help but moan out his name a few times.

Regret, embarrassment, guilt, shame. i felt a lot of emotions after he up and left right after he showered. i got no after care. idk why i thought i would. this isn't a manga it's real life. i was wondering if what i did was even right. not like i can go back. now i'm gonna die. or i can do the best option, beg my mom to move states and change who i am forever! she'd never do that. i wanted to die. i decided to keep what me and june did to myself. not like anyone was gonna assume we actually had sex right? i was. no guy wanted to have sex with me. and it's bad enough they openly admitted to never wanting to smash me to my face. not even behind my back.

That reminds me when this guy jim came up to me and told me that i had a big pimple on my nose. like dude come on who actually goes up to a female and does that. right stuck up jocks. i don't think men have class. the only guys who wanted to smash me were the losers like myself.
one monday morning While i was at starbucks getting my coffee before heading to school a cute guy got me a coffee, i couldn't help but stare. i'm not sure why he was on campus and how he got on campus but i prayed he was here to stay.

What did he look like? a god. maybe even hotter than june.. he had a tattoo on his neck and long blonde wavy hair. he had a jelly fish cut. light blue dyed tips kinda reminded me of a donut.. i wish he could fill me up.. a anyways.