Random things that I have done today

13th June 2024

I'm obsessing over a boy. He's cute. Like really cute. He's blonde with bright blue eyes. He always has a smile on his face. And always looking at me. But, I'm always going to be the freak that sits in the corner by herself. I'm always going to be the girl with severe mental problems. I'm always going to be the girl who cries herself to sleep at night. I'm never going to be able to talk about that to anyone. I do good in school but to my parents that's not good enough. I need to try harder they tell me. I'm lazy they say. You try being me for a fucking day. Having to keep a straight fucking face all day every day is exhausting. Especially when every little things gets to your head and gets you all worked up. Not once have I complained, I keep it all bottled up, I always have done and always will. Some boy in my class told my teacher I needed to be put on sucide watch. Everyone laughed at me except for that one boy who can't keep his eyes to himself. I thought he was going to stay quiet. I really did. But I thought wrong. Instead he slammed that boy face into the table. We all think his nose is broke but I'm not complaining. However, I'm sure he's regretting sticking up for me. The popular boy is now getting made fun of. Life is shit, it throws things at you and you're expecting to just dodge it and move on but I don't. It sticks with me forever and ever. I don't let go of anything. Especially when I'm on my period like today. I'm a right fucking mess.....God help me