Poem and Song's Of How I feel

poem 79

I just want to bleed out til
i am nothing
I want the pain to go away

this broken heart has been hurt for the
last time they will never understand
that i truly care for them

they will see me as the problem now
will push me away more and more
til i just finally give up

and just die and before gotten
by this world
drowning in my tears

of pain and sadness
the pain i have in my heart is
unbearable I want to cut it out

and not feel anything at all
be a empty shell of myself
who everything

I will be be forever broken
not like anyone will ever
care or understand

how this pain in my heart feels
they will always never tell me anything
to keep things healthy

they will never accept how i feel 
about it all
they don't care

they don't want to listen to me
when i tell her things are not good
to the point she is given a choice

to pick who she really wants to
be there to keep her in check
but yet I'm the bad person

I'm the horrible one to want to give
her the choice
was it wrong was it
a bad thing no

cause they took it the wrong way
of dealing with
what my worries
and panicking was

so do i have the right to even
feel anymore?