The evil in someone we love.

Part 9

I do what I want.

After being in this school for over a year, I've learned how to play these people, I'm allowed to leave the school with a chaperon, I met a boy named Steven a Caucasian boy, at a coffee shop, and he's cute, we meet at the coffee shop every time I can get out of that place, we started to find ways to be together sometimes he comes to my dorm after hours and we have sex. I even let him penetrate me in the ass, he didn't ask for it I wanted him to have it, I learned from my fathers the best way to keep a boy is to let him have something he thinks he doesn't want.

I have friends here who aren't as rich as my family is, so they do things for me for money, Brenda another girl here covers for me when I sneak out and be with Steven. She's a naive girl who doesn't do much of anything, and that's some help for me that she doesn't, I don't even thing the girl has had sex before, I'll have to help her out on that.

Lately I've been feeling under the weather so to speak, I've been sick in the morning, Brenda asked me am I pregnant, I told her I'm only sixteen, she said age has nothing to do with it, am I having safe sex with Steven. I told her sometimes we don't use protection so I could be pregnant, I called Steven and told him I need to see him right away, he said I'm ready for some more anal sex. I told him nothing like that I'll tell him when he gets here, he said he'll come later, but if not, anal sex he wants some pussy or oral sex, I told him we'll see about that when he gets here, I hung up.

Shit that's all I need is to be carrying a kid, and what if Steven stops seeing me if I am, he better not or I'll claim he raped me, or maybe I'll kill his ass. Brenda said I scare her when I talk like that, I told her it's only talk I wouldn't do that, I told her to go and get me a pregnancy test, I gave her some cash she left my room, I just said that so that she wouldn't tell if something did happen to Steven.

Later Steven snuck into my dorm room, he was all over me, I told him let me tell him what's up and afterwards if he still wants sex, I'll give him what he wants. He said please tell him I don't have a sexual disease do I, I told him no, but I haven't been feeling well in the morning, he asked me am I pregnant, I told him I might be, Brenda went to get me a pregnancy test she should be back any minute and I'll know for sure. Steven said can she keep her mouth shut, I told him she won't tell, he said and if I am we'll have to get married, I told him no we won't if I'm with child I'm getting an abortion, I'm too young to have a child, and besides look at both of us, we can't have a kid what if, he told me don't finish that sentence.

Steven said let's just find out first, and he loves me, damn I like him in all but not like love, I just like his dick in me, he knows I just want some good dick. Brenda came back she said headmaster Hunter almost caught her. She gave me two test and I went into the bathroom and took the test, I found out I'm pregnant, Steven asked me what I wanted to do, I said get rid of it, he said he'll pay for it and as of now we have safe sex, sense I don't want to have kids or marry him, now he's talking sense.

 A few days later I had the abortion, Steven and I spent the night in a hotel room his brother got for us, Brenda covered for me, but later that night something wasn't right I couldn't stop bleeding, Steven called his brother, and he came, and they took me to the hospital. I almost bled to death, that kid that was in me almost killed me, grandmother was called, and she said thank God I'm alright she called my fathers, they're on their way here, I told her I don't want to see them I'm ashamed of myself.

 Sabrina are you really ashamed, or is it that you got caught, and it almost took your life, answer me child grandmother said with a stern look on her face.

Grandmother, I am ashamed, a girl my age getting pregnant, and bringing shame to my family, grandmother said it's time I took responsibility for my actions, fine if I don't want to see my father's that's on me, but I better get my shit together no more games, this is the first time grandmother was furious with me and I did feel bad, because of all the people in my life she's always been there for me.

I told her I'll do better, but I'm not ready to see my dad's yet, she said fine and think about what she said, she'll deal with my father's she hugged me and left the room, I cried. Brenda came into the room, she said she's never seen me cry, I told her, she just saw a side of me that I don't let other people see, I am human.

She asked me what my grandmother had to say about what happened to me, I told her she said I need to get it together, and she's right, I'm ready to go home, she said but I haven't changed my ways, I just looked at her this bitch is judging me, I told her to get out. I called my dad's and told them I'm tired of playing games and ready to do right, but I need to stay here and get the help I need. Daddy Pierre said they'll see how I'm doing in a few months, and they love me, I told him I love them too and miss all of the family, he hung up, daddy Pierre will give in I know him.

After talking with Sabrina, I told James what baby girl said, he said it sounds like she's playing us again, I told him I know, but a part of me wants to be with her, she almost bled to death. James said there's nothing we can do about that, let's just see how things go with her, because she's having unprotected sex, and who knows what else she's doing. I asked him to pray with me and put it in God's hands, so we prayed not only for our daughter but our whole family.

Deep down I know baby girl is playing us, but the father in me wants to go there and hold my baby, but I have to be strong, I wanted another child, and I got one, only it's our son PJ's child and she's just like him. All I can do is keep praying for her, maybe she'll prove both James and I wrong and do better, that's all a parent wants for their child just to do better.