The evil in someone we love.

Part 16

Is it really over.

For days I've been trying to talk to Pie, I got fed up and went to the house, I told Pie to hear me out he owes him that much, Pie said he doesn't owe me a damn thing, there's nothing I can say to change what has been done. I cheated on him once again, like they say once a cheater always a cheater.

He asked me did I ever really love him, I told him of course I did and still do, he said I slept with another man, so I couldn't love him can I just leave he has some thinking to do, and if I come back, he'll leave, and I won't find him.

I asked him has he given up on our marriage already, he said I'm the one who's given up and he's going to divorce me, he never should've taken me back he wouldn't be hurting like this. I told him to really think about this, yes, I made a mistake, but I love him with ever thing in me, he said my love hurts and he can't trust me ever again. He did ask me do I love Quincy, I just looked at him and couldn't answer that, Pie said I do it's written all over my face, I told him I'm just confused, he said oh yeah Quincy fucks me, and that he's never done. I made my bed now go and lay in it; now can I leave.

I told him I'll never give up on our love, he said just leave, I left and sat in the car and cried, I started the car and drove away, I got back to the hotel and was told my things will be put into my car, I'm no longer a guest at this hotel or any hotel with the Alexander name on it, and my family card is revoked as of now. I asked him which Alexander made that happen, he said it was Maria, He called for someone to put my things into my car, and I left, I don't know why but I called Quincy, he told me to come to his place, I did.

 When I got there, he told me I'm welcome here, and he won't pressure me about our relationship, and I can sleep in the guestroom, I told him Pie is divorcing me, he didn't say anything. My phone rang and it's Manny I walked out on the balcony and took his call, he said Chandler is there with him they know what happened at the house, I told them I messed up again, Manny asked where I am, I reluctantly told him I'm with Quincy.

Manny said if I want Pie back staying here won't help, I told him Pie is divorcing me, so does it matter where I'm staying. He said I love Pie and Pie loves me maybe he'll change his mind, I told him as much as I want to believe it, I think our marriage is over and it's my fault again, maybe it's not meant for us to be together. Chandler asked me is that Quincy talking or me.

I told him Quincy hasn't said anything about it and right now I don't know what's going on with us, it started out as sex, Manny asked me is it more now, do I love Quincy. I told him I don't know, Quincy told me no pressure about our relationship, he said but it is pressure if I'm staying with him, just come stay with him. I told him he has his own family I'll be alright, Chandler said I need to be honest with myself there's something inside of me that wants Quincy and Pie, but I can't have both, and his door is open as well. I told him he lives on the estate Pie won't let me come there, I told them I love them and hung up.

 I turned and watched Quincy cleaning his own house, for some reason that made me smile, I walked back into the apartment and told him I want to share his bed with him, and it's not about sex, he said part of it is, and that's okay.

James I'm not going to lie to you, I want all of you, but I know you love Pierre and I'll have to deal with it until you tell me we can't make it and you're going to be with Pierre. He said Pierre wants a divorce, and he doesn't see them getting back together, I asked him to tell me now is there hope for us, he said right now he can't say, but what he will say is he has feelings for me, who knows how things will turn out. I told him fair enough, but I can't wait forever on rather he really wants me or am I just a rebound.

 Quincy, you're no rebound for me, remember it started with us, and I'm here, I could be with one of my son's but I'm here, now let me help you clean this place, he gave me a duster and said as of now this is my place too so get busy. I did ask him why he doesn't have someone to do this, he said he'll hire people if he has a big party or something, but he likes doing it.

 That's one thing he and Pie are nothing alike, I don't think Pie has ever done any kind of work around the house. After we finished cleaning, we had lunch and Quincy made us sandwiches and chips we sat out on the balcony and ate. I told him don't let me hold him up if he has something to do, he said he doesn't and he doesn't mind keeping me company not unless I rather be alone.

I told him right now that's the last thing I want is that he said how about we take a swim, and just chill for the rest of the afternoon, I told him I'd like that. We got changed and went upstairs and took a swim, that took Pie off of my mind, later we had dinner and watched T.V. I never knew that Quincy was a news junkie, but we never really talked about stuff like that, I found myself comparing him to Pie, he liked watching reality shows, I couldn't get into them, I found out that Quincy and I had a lot in common.

I told Quincy I'm going to shower and call it a night, he said okay, I went upstairs and got undressed and showered, Quincy came in and washed my back and I washed his body, afterwards we got dried off and went into the bedroom and got in bed and just held each other, Quincy said he doesn't mind not always having sex just someone to hold him is fine too.

I just held him until he went to sleep, I got out of bed and got my phone and looked at Pies pictures, tears went down my face, I deleted them, I went back to bed and just looked at Quincy, could he be whom I'm supposed to be with.