𝐏𝐎𝐕: 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐯𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐦𝐲, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐮𝐭𝐬 𝐚 𝐠𝐮𝐧 𝐢𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐝𝐞𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐭 𝐡𝐢𝐦
As my fingers tightened around the gun, I let my eyes gaze into his. Those brown pupils that I detested looking at. But they were different today. Almost like a magnet, attracting my attention. I tried so hard to pull the trigger but for some reason my fingers were too numb to move. Or perhaps I knew the reason.
I should have known better to not let romantic feelings get into me. I was a fool. This isn't a place for love. There was only one thing allowed here. Hatred. Deep hatred that makes you animalistic.
The world sees backing down as a cowardly act. A term I had been running away from, my entire life. Somehow though, at this very moment, it doesn't seem like an issue to be called that.
"Just do it and get it over with", he screamed, letting his tears fall. The man who I've never seen shed a drop of tear and sobbing? Despite the insensibility of my fingers, I tried pressing it against the trigger harder. As I expected, my hands begin trembling.
There was an unfamiliar ache in my chest and heaviness in the pit of my stomach. I can't imagine a life without the man infront of me.
For the first time, I wanted to scream out loud that I loved him too. That I want him to see the vulnerability within me. I know, however, the world I've built around me would not accept it. But who cares, I shall build a new world that only matters to me and stupid heart.
Is worth it? Only time will tell but until then, this gun was to be laid.
-dd
YOU ARE READING
𝐓𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐕𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐝 𝐕𝐢𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬
PoetryDigital Diary. Includes POVs, small write ups and poetry I've done.