The beast and the tamer

Chapter 7

                          Ava's pov:

I drive from the bar in disappointment, I don't want to leave, I want to talk with him more. I look back in my rear view mirror and see him there, still in the same spot as when I got in my truck. Dammit, I wish i didn't have to leave.

I think back to lunch and how much fun it was to talk with everyone. Except that one guy, hawk I think someone said his name was, whatever. I didn't like how he talked to beast. He acted as if he was someone I should fear, The thought made me laugh. I inconvenienced the guy for 3 hours and he didn't even look bothered.

This thought makes me think, I had to convince him to let me bring him lunch. Even during the lunch he told me I didn't have to do it. Maybe. Maybe he didn't want me to come. I had inconvenienced his night already and instead of leaving him alone, I made a point to see him the next day. What the fuck is wrong with me.

My insecurities are showing. Damn. I hate being a bother.

But then my mind returns to the moment I had said out loud that his brother was not as attractive. Omg. That is so embarrassing. And probably made me look so stupid. Aggggh. I wanna go home.

My mind wonders to the fact I will probably never see him again. Fuck. It's fine. It's fine. I don't care. "Yeah bullshit" I mumble to myself.

I arrive home 10 mins later. As I open the door Meredith, Ally, and our friend chase were all seated in the couch staring at me. Damn. I should have known mere wouldn't have kept her mouth shut.

"What" I say, trying to act innocent but failing miserably. "So who is he?" The question comes from chase. "Who?" I ask, "who did u bring lunch to?" Ava ask with a smirk. Fuck. Damn Meredith and her big mouth. I sigh as I walk past to the kitchen to put my stuff up.

"He's just someone I owed an apology to" all 3 of them follow me. "Are u sure?" Chase ask in a sing song voice, "positive" I say matter of factly.

I place the dirty dishes in the sink from lunch and put the lunch bag away under the counter.

"Come on, is that really it?" Meredith pipes up for the first time since I've been home. "Yup" I say, she sighs in defeat.

" I guess this means ur going back to being a shut in with no plans" mere says. Excuse me. 99.999% of the time I'm a "shut in" because she's overprotective and doesn't like me going out. I'm not really ever mad about it cause I don't want to go out anyway but we don't talk about that part.

I walk past them, heading towards my room but chase stops me. "Bitch, I just got here we are hanging out." He says with a grin. "I thought you were supposed to be on a cruise with ur boyfriend, why the hell are u here anyway" I say, genuinely confused.

Chase had been head over heels for this guy, they had been dating for like 2 years now. Chase told us 1 week ago that he was going on a 2 week cruise with the guy. The math ain't math-ing.

"Oh it ended early due to a problem on the ship but don't worry we got refunded for the 2nd week" he said,waving a hand as if to change the subject. "What happened?" Yes I'm nosy and ignore him. "I don't know, something about engine problems." Oh...boring.

We spend the next couple hours chatting and playing games just having fun and chilling. It isn't till like 5 or 6 when Ally and Chase leave.

After they leave, me and mere spend the rest of the night watching sweet tooth on Netflix. We ended things around 8 because she has work in the morning.

I retreat to my room with 2 things on my mind a shower and sleep.

I shower and change Into my favorite pjs, cropped tank top with comfy shorts that no one in their right mind would wear in public due to the fact they only cover half of my ass. They are black with red hearts that look like they're dripping blood. Yes it's dark but it's cool looking.

Actually now that I think about the girls from the bar would totally wear something like this in public. Yeah, they'd wear it with the most ridiculous confidence. The thought makes me laugh out loud.

Thoughts of the bar make my mind wander back to him. Beast. Ha the name really does suit him. That's the kind of energy he gives of. A predator, a monster that could seriously fuck someone up. I have no doubt he could, but he's still more than that, I only got a glimpse but behind the eyes of the beast lies a lonely soul.

I think back to how that guy talked about him. He acted as if he wasn't right there, and he said something so rude. I understand if a person has their own opinions but you don't have to be mean about it.

I remember feeling so angry. Am I really scary, everyone seemed to agree including beast. I do remember when I felt angry at that guy when I was talking to him, I noticed his body language changed he got timider and kinda uncomfortable looking.

but I thought that was just because that was the first time a girl had looked at him and wasn't drooling. I mean the guy wasn't ugly and I felt like many of the women he came across had no shame in throwing themselves at bikers.

Except beast. They said most girls avoid him but still. Some girls probably like that sort of thing. The intimidating and quiet.

Hell, I like that sort of thing.

That's probably why I can't get him out of my fucking head. Yeah, probably just a crush. It will go away. I'll never see him again so it will definitely go away.

It has to go away.

(Authors note: yeah ik it's been a while pls just bear with me. I have ADHD so sometimes I just completely lose interest in writing.🙂‍↕️sorry)