Live, Love, & Poetry

My inner thoughts in writing part 1

*disclosure these poems can be triggering to anybody who might be going through some things please if you feel like these poems are too much call a family member or friend or a trusted adult to get help. Some names and identifying details have been changed to protect the privacy of individuals. Thank you*

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Every star waits for the darkness to shine,

I was gone by the first sign of the light.

Ignorance is bliss,

Maybe that is why I am scared to fight.

Every star waits for the darkness to shine,

I was gone by the first sign of the light.

Pretending, and smiling like everything is fine,

Even though the tears never dry.

Feeling like we are always on the front line,

In a war that one of us is bound to die.

Feeling as if our love is coming to it's deadline.

I know you don't want to be the bad guy,

I will take the blame for the pain and call it mine.

Every star waits for the darkness to shine,

I was gone by the first sign of the light.

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I couldn't stay and love you

so I became heartless.

Told him I couldn't fall in love,

He became unhappy.

It's part of life, honey.

Told him I couldn't keep him happy,

I am way too busy chasing money.

My life is too precious for me to be unhappy.

Told him, it was time for me to leave.

There is no turning back now,

I turn towards the door.

Feeling my heart drop to the floor.

I miss the old you, the one I adore.

I want to go back to the way it was before.

Feeling like this love is a chore,

I think it is time to close this door.

I am sorry I couldn't stay,

I couldn't stay and love you

so I became heartless.

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Late nights are the worst for me,

Late nights are when my demons creep in,

Late nights are when I try to flee,

My mind is like maze,

One moment I believe I am free,

I believe I can be whoever I am meant to be,