TAYLOR SWIFT - [1]

I'm In Love, But Not With Him pt. 1

It was probably one of the best nights of my life. Everyone was dancing, singing, and just having an amazing time. People were drunk, throwing up, and even passed out on the couch but that honestly made it a lot better to know how much fun people were having. y/n had offered to use her house for the party and I immediately said yes. I was sick of always having them at my house.

The music was playing and I was swaying back in forth in the arms of my current boyfriend, Travis. His hands gripped my waist and his head was nuzzled into my neck, his lips were warm against me, but not yet kissing it. "This is nice." I whispered as my head rested against his chest, he didn't respond with words, instead he responded with a contented hum then finally leaving a soft kiss against my neck. I giggled but my heart didn't flutter like I thought it would, and as I looked across the room, my eyes made contact with y/n. My smile dropped. And she looked away.

There was no denying the attraction I had been feeling towards her, and dare I say, I felt it the moment I met her, yet proceeded to get into a relationship with Travis. I new her sexuality so there was a chance she liked me, but she didn't know mine. Did I trust her enough to tell her? Yes. Did I trust myself enough to tell her? No. Travis didn't even know I liked women as well.

My eyes watched as she started pouring herself another glass of wine, and taking a sip. I watched as her lips wrapped perfectly around the rim of the glass. She was beautiful and I wanted so bad to tell her, but I was too scared.

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It was getting pretty late and people were starting to leave. y/n was so drunk she was falling all over the place, Travis disappeared, and I was sitting on the couch watching everything play out. It was funny, but my eyes wouldn't leave y/n's body. She was somehow perfect, even when she was drunk.

"Hey, baby. I'll be outside with the boys for a second." I jumped wheb I heard Travis' voice behind me. "Jesus, you scared me!" I lightly smacked his arm, earning a soft chuckle before he turned around and made his way to the porch. Me on the other hand made my way over to the drunkest woman in the room. "Ah! Taylor, hey!" Her words were slurred but she was adorable. I wanted to grab her and kiss her, taste the alcohol on her lips, but I didn't. Instead, I grabbed her arm and wrapped mine around her waist. "Hey, let's get some sleep, it's late and you're drunk." She groaned.

I continued walking upstairs and ignored her rambling on about how she's not tried or drunk, when she clearly was.

When we finally made it to the bedroom, I layed her down and tucked her in. I gave her a goodnight and started walking away, but before I could her arm reached out and grabbed mine. "Where are you going?" She looked disappointed, and it hurt. But why was she disappointed? "I-I'm going to sleep on the couch. Why?"

"No... please stay with me. I don't want to be alone."

I hesitated. I had a boyfriend, and although nothing was going to happen, I felt guilty knowing I was sleeping with someone other then my boyfriend. "Alright..." I sighed and slowly crawled into bed next to her, making sure to keep my distance. Her back was now turned towards me and I admired the way her hair fell down against the silk pillow sheets, it was perfect. I watched as her breathing slowed down and how her chest rose and fell. The sound of her breath was the music to my ears, it could easily put me to sleep, but it didn't. Instead, my willpower was slowly slipping and suddenly my arms reached out to pull her in closer to me. She moved in too, her head resting against my chest and her fingers gripping my shirt tightly like a baby wanting to be closer to its mother. It made my heart flutter, like it should have when Travis kissed me.

I held her close to me, and she held me back so comforting, when I heard a knock on the door and it opening to see Travis. "Hi... what's going on in here?" My heart raced and all I had to do was tell the truth; it wasn't bad.

"She's drunk and doesn't like sleeping alone. She also threw up a little bit so I thought I would stay the night and take care of her since she lived alone." Okay, maybe I lied a little bit, but it won't hurt, right?

"You're too sweet, and that's why I love you." He came over and pecked my lips before turning to leave. "I'll be at home, come home when you're ready."

It sucked. It sucked that he was kissing me when I had a woman in my arms. A woman I desired. A woman I was falling for. A woman I was in love with. I let out a shaky breath. "Goodnight, y/n." I saw a faint smile on her lips before I closed my eyes, replaying everything in my head from tonight.

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The sun peaked through the blinds of her bedroom and my eyes gently fluttered open to find our bodies intertwined, not like they were before we went to bed, but more romantic. It's like we never stopped touching and it made me soar. My fingers ran through her hair, despite how disheveled it was, and it made me smile knowing how it felt to wake up next to her pretty little body.

Her body twitched as my hand rested in her hair and that's when she turned to look at me, the sun hitting her eyes perfectly. "Good morning..." She whispered before stretching and letting out a soft groan. I just smiled and looked down at her. "Has anyone ever told you how beautiful you look? Even with your hair all messy!" I rubbed the top of her head, messing her hair up more. She quickly ducked under the covers causing a light giggle to escape my lips. "Oh. Hiding from me now?" I pulled the blankets up to look at her pretty smile and a faint blush on her cheeks. Fucking beautiful.

"It's just bright. The sun." She got out from under the covers and sat up to rub her eyes and fix her hair. She hopped out of bed and made her way to her dresser to pick out today's clothes, I couldn't help but look at the way her bottoms showed off her ass perfectly, but I forced myself to look away so I wouldn't be disrespectful. I got out and walked beside her, she looked at me with bright eyes and a huge smile. "Your hair's a little messy too." She snickered before running out of the room. "Hey!" My heart was racing. It felt incredible to be around her like this and I wish it was all the time.

Once she finished getting dressed, she cane out with shorts and a crop top. "Can you help me put my hair up?" She asked with a smirk on her face, I didn't want to read too much into what she meant by it though. "Of course." I said with hesitation and grabbing the elastic from her. I took a fist full of her hair then slowly started gathering it. Her neck looked so kissable and I had to resist no matter how tempted I was. "There you go, babe." Her head whipped around as the nickname slipped out. "Babe?" The smirk from moments ago appeared again. I shook my head and walked out of the room. My heart racing.

"That was a mistake, it was Travis in my mind." Fuck it wasn't. I wanted her. I wanted to hug her, hold her, kiss her, make love to her, everything you could possibly think of doing with a lover. And it wasn't like it was with Travis. It couldn't and would never be. She followed me downstairs into the kitchen where I grabbed an apple...

"So... are you leaving today? To go back to Travis?"

The mention of his name again killed, I felt guilty, but it also felt right being with her. "Yes. I have to." She just nodded then quickly opened her mouth to speak. "Hey, T." I walked over to her and shook my head, I already knew what she was gonna say because I was thinking and feeling it too.

It hurt that I had to go back to him and I knew what I wanted with her. I wanted to show her that I loved her, not just tell her, and she could also see it in my eyes.

No matter how much the guilt was nagging at me, my hands traveled to her waist anyways, pulling her into me. "y/n." I whispered before leaning in to press my lips to hers. Her hands immediately landed in my hair, pulling me in deeper. I turned her around so her stomach was against the counter and began to kiss along her jaw and neck. Soft moans escaped the two of us, and Travis was completely out of my mind. "Touch me."

Her words hit me like a brick but I didn't hesitate. My hands eagerly roamed her body. She wasn't wearing a bra so I had easy access where I gently cuffed her breast, playing with her soft, erect nipples, ever so lightly. Her lips were against mine again, one hand stayed on her breast and the other traveled down her lower stomach and into her loosely fit shorts, then her underwear, and between her already wet folds, earning another soft breathy moan of my name. "Tell me what you want y/n. Tell me." I kissed along her shoulders as my hand stayed perfectly still, pushing her to her limits with my tease.

"Taylor... please-"

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Pt. 2 will come for this one!