BTS Jungkook fanfic | Oneshot

Star-crossed Part 2 |21+|

It's been week since that party. I couldn't stop thinking about jungkook. His words keep running in my mind. The way his gaze wrecked me without touch. I couldn't even think about soobin. Jungkook was all that was on my mind. His words, his body, his dominance, his lust. I spent nights touching myself with his thoughts.

Soobin called me few times but I just replied in messages. The guilt was making me feel sick yet the one who aroused it is what I craved for. Soobin came to my doorstep three days ago. I did opened the door but made excuse of being sick so he left after getting me medicine.

I had no way of contacting jungkook to know about him. The burden of speaking with soobin was weighing me down. I have decided, I'm going to tell him about ending the relationship. I did already told him at the start of relationship, that my feelings weren't too deep. He will understand.

I got dressed in black jeans, loose white tank top with thin cotton jacket on top, paired with ankle boots. Taking my bag, i walked out of the door, locking it. I had messaged soobin to meet me at the cafe we once went.

I took bus to reach there. It was 20 minutes away from the busstand. I walked inside the cafe, talking with staff about reserved table. This cafe provided table in private room that you could reserve. I got myself hazelnut cold coffee and waited for him.

Not long time after, he walked inside. I saw him through glass wall that allowed view from only inside, but he didn't, not yet. Watching him looking around the room with big eyes, he looked so innocent. It broke my heart more to know what I was going to do. But I just can't force myself to feel something for him.

I saw him asking staff then they guided him towards the room. Once he got inside, he stood beside the table. "Noona, are you feeling okay now?" He asked. I nodded my head and asked him to take seat. I waited till we got his drink delivered.

Silence lingered on us before I decided to break it. "How have you been?" I asked. He met my eyes. "Good." He smiled and I was glad it wasn't fake.

I sighed. Not knowing what else to say. I decided to directly go on matter. "I wanted to talk to you about something important." He looked up at me to hear. I held his hand that was on the table.

"Just know that none of it is your fault." I said. He looked confused at me. "I..I fell out of love." I said. I didn't quite knew how to word it out. I felt him frozen and baffled. "What?" He muttered. "But why?" I could see hurt slowly crawling up in his eyes.

"No. It's not you. It's me." I sighed. "I was going to tell you about this but couldn't bring myself to. I tried. But I couldn't force myself to love." I said softly. He was the last person, I had want to hurt.

"But why suddenly?" He asked. He was more stable than i expected and it gave me relief. "I knew it was affection. We thought it will grow. But I can't...I don't know why...." I really don't know why I can't bring myself to love him.

"I like you as a person. I really do. You are wonderful. Best person I had ever met. But I can't..." He looked down. "You don't have to force yourself. Forced things wouldn't last forever anyways." He says.

"I'm sorry." He nodded his head. "I'm glad you let me know before it grew more. Don't worry. I can deal with it." He says with strong voice. "you don't have to be all this soft. I'm man. I can handle it." I don't know but there seemed bit of annoyance in his tone maybe cause he thought I was treating him like immature boy.

"I'm talking softly cause I respect you. I might not love you that way but I was honest and happy with you. You are important part of my life." He looked up at me. "It hurts to know that I am causing you pain and I couldn't even be there for you." I meant it, every word of it.