I never expected things to go this way
I never wanted to take things this way
But we had to
I told you could break up
Told you that you could chastise me
Told you that you could block me
But all you wanted to do was talk things out
I don't know if you read the last doc I sent
Probably not
It doesn't matter
I don't know what to call what we had today
It would be an understatement to call it a rough patch
But it's an overstatement to call it an argument
Then what was it?
Was it because I showed how I felt?
Was it me being honest?
Was it me showing everything?
I promised things would chance
But I didn't mean for the worse
You have the right to do what you want
Block me
Yell at me
Break up with me
Abuse me
I don't care what happens
I did this for your happiness
But I never took account for myself
I let myself show
I let myself show what I actually felt
I let myself show what I actually meant
I let you know what I was bothered by
I know I felt a weight being lifted off my shoulders
But you seemed broken and upset
Deceived and lied to
I'm sorry that happened to you
I'm sorry I deceived you for this long
I'm sorry it all happened
I can't tell if you were angry whenever I first told you
I'm sorry if I made you angry
I know it's not the best for me
But I opened another bottle
I shut off my phone
And I focused on myself
I took the day off for myself
Just like we wanted
A day to calm and cool down
A day just to be ourselves and mend
I doubt it'll all be the same
Not like before
It'll be different
I can't predict it
I've been through this track before
But why does it hurt so much?
I guess the silent suffering was too much for me
There's not much I can say
I love you
I'm sorry for putting you through so much hurt
