merciless destiny

Chapter1

Raghavi's pov

Finally god my exams are over and I had to get a good sleep..who the hell invented this exam thing if by chance I meet him I'll kick his ass and kill by my self ....

Though it was a good 15 days of semester where I can't think other than my studies...in these days I wake up all night only for studies.......let it be I don't wanna think about anything now

So I just start staring out of the window

How these mountain stood strongly without complaining anything they always protect us from heavy rain but ever someone protect them .... every one talks about love between sky and land they never meet each other but see closely each other through these mountain..but any one ever thought about that mountain when no one comfort him and no one stays with him ...even we humans always says "pahadome khushiya hei" but we ever saty there , we ever think about to share the pain of that mountain, we only visit him and then we leave him alone to suffer.....may be he also want someone tho hold him just like us we always crave for love ..a bond where someone take care of us and gives reason to leave a life but everybody don't get that faith just like mountain ....he also got family of stone grass soil but he never got that someone who can wait for him eternity just for one day he will hers .......just like I'm waiting for that only friend mine who hold me and always stays by my side ..my avi ....Does he remember me or  even if he forgot me, is he safe ,what is he doing,is he even alive.....

    

'Ramnagar Ramnagar Ramnagar' conductor announced my station and I came out of my own world..ohh he is here my brother Abir  I convinced him to pick me up from station "hii dada let's go by the way you can ride this bike properly no because I don't want to get factures anywhere " I said poking him "unlike you who don't even know how to ride a cycle " he said dramatically...I set on his bike and went to home .

The day after tomorrow we are doing dadu's  barsi...ohh that man all family members and all people of my town fear only by his name but he feared by his short wife who happened to be his forsed wife ...I always miss that man because of him I got to know how someone can love another without any demands desires just  selfless love ....

Just like that I came to home I talked with everyone and took blessings and just went to sleep Though I knew sleep won't give me it's 1st priority ....so I started to read something I sleep consumed me with mercifully.

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NEXT MORNING

Sun is brightening for his lover but for her he always disturbs us to make her shine more he also shines and give her some sparkle but because of their love we always have to wake up and give another chances to this world to make us more venerable....I wake up and did my morning routine and got ready for visiting my favourite place I grabbed shoes were a short kurti with a jeans and pair of earrings and went for breakfast...
As I saw all started there breakfast without including me no one even glance at me .. this ignorance and left out felling is not new for me ..they never consider me and love me as they love my siblings.....I feel hurt but ajji ( grandmother) saw me and called before I went there dada (brother) came beside me and said " if you want to go out you have to finish your breakfast with me " my eyes widened how he got to know my every plan and how he make me feel cared . I give him a small smile and take my seat beside my ajji (grandmother) .

I was munching that food but my teste buds were screaming for rescue but before gulping that mussel I choke...... everyone saw me with anger I feel embarrassed...why don't they understand I don't do anything purposely it happened before my aai ( mother) scold me my gentleman brother pass me a glass of water and saw everyone with dead glair.. I finish my breakfast ASAP and went out of the house.....

Today I feel more hurt even though I came after so many days to home no one asked me about studies or my wellbeing..no one even visited me in my hostel .....I feel alone .. I like being alone or maybe I forced myself to be alone everyone says being alone is a good thing but I feel lonely is this what I deserve ?? ....for this god sent me on this earth for this pain.

I shut my heavy thoughts and pray to Krishna "please krishnaji please shatter my heart and reduce my pain and kill me for once for all please please please" and I start feeling dizzy my legs got numb ...my heart pounding rapidly I can't breathe the panick embraced me without my consent......my nani's words echoed in my ear "whenever you feel like panicking, sad , vulnerable do things which you like which you love do it for yourself " i started singing for escape from clutches of panick to console myself ..yes I love music it cure my my panick attack at least for some time...

Tere mere darmiyan hei bate unkahi
Tu vaha hei , mei yaha que sath hum nahi
Fesale Jo kiye, fasale hi mile
Rahe juda que ho gai , na tu galat na mei sahi
Leja muze sath tere , mujhako na rehana sath mere
Leja mujhe sath tere

My panic attack got some rest  for sometime by my song and I again started to walk but this time my brain cells were calling me with some weird creepy feelings like someone chasing me , Someone was staring at me with dark intentions, stocking me . fear filled my brain  I start running like my life depends on it and once again my panick come into actions my brain feel numb my breath get stop I feel something tighting my neck ... Direct I started running...." please god please not again" and collided with a herd tall wall and darkness embarrassed me in a tight hug.

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