Heat In The Dorm

chapter 29

Hope pov

It was early in the morning and we finally made it to the cabin. The cabin was big and next to a beautiful lake with a bonfire.

"Damn this is nice" Josie said we started to put our things in the house and looked around. I went to the second floor and into one of the rooms. It was big with a bed in the middle and some drawers.

There was a window I walked closer to it and I opened it. I saw the lake better like this. I leaned over as I put my elbows on the frame and just looked outside.

I didn't realize how much time had passed. I felt hands around my waist pulling me out of my thoughts "you okay?" I turn my head seeing Josie behind me.

"Yeah just thinking" I said I stood up and leaned into her, she hugged me tighter and kissed my neck "the others want to go swimming" she said I looked at her and my hand went to her cheek as I pulled her into a kiss.

"I'll be right there" I said she nodded and gave me a quick kiss before leaving the room.

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After we were done swimming and stuff we were sitting in front of the bonfire. The sun went down so it was a perfect hot and cold mix.

I was sitting next to Josie as we were drinking some beers. "I'm bored so what's the reason you broke up with your ex?" Lizzie asked.

Everyone looked at each other "you people so boring, Cleo you go" Lizzie said Cleo started to think about it "me and my ex broke up it's because he cheated" Cleo said.

"Oh yeah Josh I hated that fucker" I said Cleo nodded "me too girl" everyone shared their stories until it was me.

"Nothing crazy me and Landon broke up calmly" I said I leaned over to grab another beer from the cooler "but as you know in high school you never told me how you guys broke up actually you didn't even look sad" Cleo said and everyone nodded.

I sigh "because I didn't like him" I said as I sat back down everyone looked at me confused "what?" They all said.

"I remember you being all over him," Lizzie said.

"It's been a year or two forget about it okay" I said I felt eyes on me and I looked at Josie I can tell she had so many questions since she had her cute confused face.

Everyone left it alone but I saw Cleo was giving me quick looks.

Shit

We finally decided to go to bed and Josie finished showering and she was in bed as I dried my hair.

"Why did you date Landon if you didn't like him?" Josie asked I sigh and I turned to look at her "Josie" I groaned.

Josie got closer to me and pulled me on her lap. Her hands went on my thighs giving them a squeeze "you don't have to tell me babe but I'm just curious you know" she said.

I took a deep breath "it was because of you I dated Landon because of you" I said I felt Josie turn me around which I let her and her hands went to my cheeks "please explain" she said.

"You know you were dating that girl and when Landon asked me out I wanted to forget you so I dated him I really tried to forgot about you but I couldn't and I knew it was wrong but I tried to like him but I only liked him as a friend so I ended" I said in one breath.

Josie didn't really say anything, she just looked at me "I can't make myself love someone because I only loved you, I just couldn't express it" I continued. Josie cracked a smile and started to laugh.

I looked at her so confused she fell into the bed covering her face and a few seconds later she uncovered her face "oh god I'm so sorry but I couldn't help myself anyways Hope I did the same" she said.

"really?" I asked not believing it and she nodded "but that’s also why I didn't date anyone" she said I lay down on her as her arms wrapped around me holding me.

"Why were you so mean to me in middle and high school?" she asked I groan as I push myself deeper into her "I couldn't express myself I didn't know how to feel for you so I thought if I act like I hated you, you would at least hate me but I hated when you looked sad" I whispered.

I know I can't change the past. I still hate myself for making Josie sad during middle school but I like where we are now. All that matters is I'm not with her fully but we'll get there soon.