The Otherside: <3 Kell

Chapter 5: What have I done?

WARNING: There are some words used in this chapter that is not suitable for children for children. Viewer Discretion Is Advised. This chapter contains many feelings in which many of you will cry. I cried just making this. Let there be tissues near you.
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Y/N P.O.V.

"What just happened!? What will KELLIN think!? Oh dear god, oh dear god oh dear god!" I'm super scared. What will Kellin think, how will he react. I'm a total wreck and I can't believe I just let it happen! I just sat on the couch, hugged my knees and cried. What have I done!? How could I have been so blind!? Did Vic do that on purpose? Or was it accidental? I looked at Vic from my position and he was just broken.

Vic's P.O.V.

What did I do!? I don't know why I did that! Why couldn't I have just sat down like a normal person?! No! I just had to do some fucked up shit. I just decided to lay on the floor and keep to myself, but then I heard Y/N crying. I know what I did was wrong but I shouldn't have went that far. She likes Kellin and I can't change that. No matter how much I try it'll always be devoted to Kellin..... Grrr.....just the thought hurt me and at the same time made me angry. I don't know why.... Her lips they were so soft and sweet. Kellin's lucky, he has Y/N. I need to leave. Her life is just gonna get more frustrating if I stay...So I text Mike hopefully he wasn't drunk or something....

V: Mikey can you pick me up from Y/N's house?
M: Sure, what's wrong cause you said you were gonna stay the night?
V: I'll tell you during the ride. Okay?
M: Alright be there in a little.
I just need to leave. I don't want to be here anymore. I stood up. "I won't be a burden anymore, I'll just go...." After that I went on the front porch to wait for Mike. A few minutes later there he was with Jaime and Tony and they looked concerned. "Vic get in and tell us what happened..." Jaime said. And whenever Jaime was concerned you better tell. So I got in the car, I rode shotgun, and we were off. "I-I k-kissed Y/N" "And? That's bad how?" Mike said. "I didn't mean to! It was an accident! Plus she's with Kellin and what if she thinks I did it on purpose because I like her!? I just can't handle that...." "We're here" We pulled up at Tony's house. "Our girls decided to take over my house and Jaime's is messy so we went to Tony's instead." I just slouched into the house and into the bathroom. I just sat on top of the toilet seat and cried. Then I got up and looked in the mirror...All I saw was an ugly, selfish crude. Then I broke the mirror and took a glass shard and cut the sides of my stomach deep enough until it bled. I put my shirt back down and cleaned the glass up. I wiped my eyes and went to Tony's room and locked the door behind me. Bzzz~! Huh?
M: You okay? We heard glass shatter and Tony's worried as fuck. Bro we need to know you're alright.
V: I'm fine I just need to rest for a little bit. I'll talk to you in a little while.
M: Okay.
I put my phone away and cried myself to sleep. I couldn't deal with the day any longer...