Love and Madness: a demon's desire

Arise phoenix

I laid on the bed, staring at the ceiling as I was deep in thought. Why did he almost kiss me? Why did he do that and why? I groaned as u used the pillow to cover my face. The lack of answers really bothered me. I need to get some answers. I hated Malak with everything but I couldn't help but heat up. I got butterflies in my stomach every time I recalled the thought he did to me, and that dream of mine. I didn't like Malak, I wanted him dead. I wanted him to suffer, but I couldn't help but think why. Why couldn't I get those memories out of my head, what's happening to me. Was this some sick trick to lure me or a normal thing demons did. Everything is really confusing right now. It feels like my world was flipped upside down. Maybe the madness and horrors I went through messed up my mind. Yeah, that's probably it, almost no other logical explanation. I turned to my side as I touched my lips. Would it be wrong to say I didn't like it? It was probably one of the effects of the curse. But the first kiss he gave me back in the carnival realm felt so real, so gentle. The most recent kiss from him just felt like he was obsessed with me. Despite the room being cold, all these thoughts somehow kept me warm as i fell asleep.

I peacefully woke up by myself the next day, or that's what I assumed it was. I really don't know how time works in this place. The first thing I noticed was that I was wrapped in a black coat. As I analyzed it, it didn't take long to realize it belonged to Malak. I slowly got up and stretched as the coat still wrapped around me. No matter how much I wanted to toss it to the ground, it had gotten cold at night and his coat was extremely warm and still was. I guess I was thankful for it and kept it as long as I could.

I don't know how long I have been here, a week, a month? It must have been like a week, if not more or less. I've lost my sense of time here, with no window or clock it's easy to do so. It seems the only way to count time was with the bruises and cuts. Fortunately, I've been cooperating for my own sake. Based on Malak's words and that he's going more easy on me, hes rewarding me for good behavior. No more trips down memory lane, no more cuts or bruises, but instead food and peace replacing it.

The thing with my memories was that Malak knew everything about me now. By watching my memories and thoughts, he had learned everything about me. I just hope he hasn't been watching my dreams, unless it's him planting those dreams in me. I was getting used to Malak's behavior and habits. It wasn't as weird to me since his and other's presence. It only made sense that i was growing more familiar with this place, could i be losing my touch to the mortal realm and strengthening my grip here. I don't know if this change of behavior was considered to be normal for a human having to put up with all of this. Malak said its a process, he also said ill be taken out of this dank prison cell in order to meet the others, as well as learn new things and the environment.

I looked up at Malak who had just appeared inside my cell, once again. Malak smiled at me, I almost forgot I was still wrapped up in his jacket. He probably liked that I had to depend on him for food, warmth, and safety. "I see you are enjoying my dressings, hm?" Malak hummed. I stared at him sleepily. "I wanted to let you know. That you have been a very good girl lately. You have not caused any troubles for me. I believe it's time we took you home just as promised, don't you agree?" He tilted his head at me. My eyes widen, "home?" I don't know whether or not I should be afraid of his proposition. "Yes, home." He grinned as he offered his hand. "Hold on me now. We are getting out of this place."

I don't know what's been happening to me. He probably thinks it's because I lost my spark, hope and determination. He knew I couldn't escape. I had to adapt to my new environment, whether or not I wanted to. I guess I gave up, I never wanted to, but there was truly no hope and chance for escape. I was Malak's puppet now, I was marked by him and there's nothing I could do about it. I reluctantly took his hand and before i could say anything, i lost all control of my body for a short time. That was caused due to the inhuman power Malak held. He teleported us somewhere, to another place that only he could enter possibly. I looked at the ground, I felt dizzy in the head and thought my stomach wouldn't stop doing flips. He looked at me in amusement of my state of form. I started to play with tattered clothes trying to recover and re center myself within this new location. Malak only chuckled as he looked down at me, eyeing me like a new toy to a kid.