Diary of a teenage girl

Mania

TW: slight mention of Self harm

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"if i am bipolar i sure as shit prefer mania over depression" - Rue Bennet

When the manic episodes starts to happen it feel great, like you're on top of the world, like you're invincible, like you're not in reality

Mania can come out of nowhere.

One minute you're rotting in your bed and the next you're ripping your house apart just to clean it again

Unbeknownst to you if someone peered through you're window and saw what was happening they'd think you're insane

A closer look and they'd see it. the dilated pupils, the lifeless look on your face,

or they'd hear it

the loud fast chatter bursting out of you're mouth as you speak faster than your mind can comprehend

it's like you're words are moving faster than you are

but damn, it feels fucking awesome

the euphoric feeling like your on top of the world when you move

but the urges are the worst

whether it's to cut your hair or your wrists it's almost like you cant fight it

you don't know what you're doing and your moving but you're mind isn't

you might rage out at people who set you off at the slightest thing

but the worst of it all is the crash

when it's finally over whether it had been days or weeks or even months the crash is the worst

the depression starts flooding in and you're mind is racing

you start to remember everything you did and as the guilt eats you up inside you're body starts to tire itself out and then

you crash.

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Author:
hello to anyone who's reading this (probably no one) but that's okay i've been gone for a while but i'm back

i'll be trying to update more stuff but i'm thinking about starting another story

i've recently been getting into randomly making book ideas in my notes with different plots but i have no idea which one to complete

there's a possibility of me posting my ideas and getting others opinions on them to see what sounds cool and would be favored by people

also if there are any ideas on things i could write please share i'll probably make a book about my account so be sure to look out for that

anyways i hope you have a good day/night and are enjoying my writing goodbye love ya! ❤️