The Choice Bonjovi|| Engl.

Chapter XII•i'll be there for you

Jon had been tormenting himself for days about the questions he was going to ask Chanel, June's friend. He wasn't even sure whether he wanted the actual answer or not, but he felt it was the right thing to do.

In any case he wanted to understand, understand every single move, word or phrase said, as well as furtive behaviors, which certainly did not represent June's personality..
Even if he had met her that day, he would certainly have seen that that behavior didn't suit her at all..

To those looking from the outside, Jon may have seemed like a meddler, a man capable of not minding his own business, but needless to say that the truth was distinct from what the common imagination could even remotely think..

For Jon, friendship was sacred, something that went far beyond any feeling, for him being a friend was the basis for a long-lasting relationship, which, even if it was minimal, remained immutable over time..

For that singer it was worth understanding, throwing away something so precious was not contemplated and never would have been..
If he would have ever given up, surely in his thoughts there could only be the phrase "I tried, it didn't work but I have no regrets"..

But although for many it may have been the only possibility in a sea of indifference, for him...
He had always been convinced of one thing, perhaps even the most obvious, a phrase that would also be found inside the chocolate container, but however banal and obvious it was, it was still a truth that he treasured and preserved its form. ..
That is, "that no matter how circumstances and people may get lost or die, friendship remains and will remain forever"...

Truth we never talked about truth, yet that sentence was one that not only Jon cared about, but he believed in it and truly believed in it..
It wasn't like those teachings that you then throw away without even knowing if you would have needed them..
No, not this, it was a human teaching, a teaching that went far beyond any other foundation of life..

He looked dumbfounded and couldn't understand how that foundation came to nothing from nothing with just a small snap of the fingers, too faint to hear, but too powerful to create chaos..

No he wasn't in it, how many times had he fought this battle and won and this time he didn't want to lose, friendship was an important thing and he would have demonstrated it in his own way, seeking confirmation and not answers..

Confirmations from those who perhaps knew and who perhaps would have told him what was happening even if he had spoken in broad terms, he wouldn't have cared much, but for them he would have known where to start...

- Chanel, I know that maybe I'm asking too much of you, but I have to know something that I think is very important - Jon said to Chanel..

It was well known that he would ask him something that perhaps he would never tell him, but it was certainly better for him to try than to let it go with the knowledge that he would feel bad for not having tried..

-It depends on what I have to answer you about-said Chanel, even if she knew where her husband's friend was going..

Yes, she knew, but she wanted to pretend nothing happened, she didn't want to understand in order to be vague, she didn't know how to answer, even if the answer actually existed and was obvious to her eyes..

- actually my question is very simple and it is this, why is June trying in every way to avoid me? What have I done to her to deserve this?- Jon asked her

These are the questions she was expecting, Chanel, but she knew well that she couldn't answer, and that the person directly concerned had to do it, but she already imagined that she hadn't done so, but she had promised to remain silent for his own good..

- I'm sorry Jon, but I can't help you, not because I don't know, but because I know and I promised not to say a word about it to anyone, not even Richie knows..
I'm really sorry, I would like to tell you but I can't, but if you care, ask June directly - said Chanel..

What an embarrassing situation had been created because of June, and in poor Jon's eyes, Chanel could see all the confusion one could feel and didn't even know what to do..

She was tempted to tell him but at the same time she was blocked by her own friend who the day before had made her swear not to say anything..
A bit like the friends you make in elementary school..

- don't worry, I understand, it means that she will have to explain it - said Jon, dismissing poor Chanel who really wanted to help him..

The only thing the poor girl didn't accept was that her friend was behaving in a childish manner and at the same time she was making a good person suffer and that good person was Jon who didn't deserve it...

- June, can we talk - Jon asked him once he managed to arrive in time to try to talk to the person concerned

- I'm sorry but I have some backlog of work I really should finish it - said June

- my question is simple and will take a few minutes - explains the singer

- OK, tell me - she said..

And here again was his cold and detached attitude, which confused the poor boy who didn't even know how to behave..

- what have I done to you? - Jon asked precisely, seeing again how the same person was treating, that icy attitude of someone who didn't want his presence

- I don't understand - said June, pretending nothing happened

- why do you treat me so ? Why do you treat me with indifference?
I don't understand where I went wrong and if I was wrong - Jon said in a frustrated manner, because he was, he had been for days.

- I treat you as always, it's just that I repeat, I have a lot of work these days - she said, looking for an excuse she could give him

- I don't believe it, you're not like that, it's as if you don't care about our friendship..
I know there's something, I feel it and I know it, and it's strange that you don't want to talk to me about it..
For me friendship is more important than any other possible feeling on this earth, love may end, but friendship remains forever - said Jon

-I don't know where you're going with this- June said

- really nothing but I want to tell you one thing..
I will always be there for you when you need me and if one day you want to tell me the reason for this indifference I will be ready to listen to you..
I'm only sorry that it's not the right time because all this really makes me feel bad, because I don't know how to behave..
I just wish you understood this," Jon said

- I Jon..- June tried to say, but it was too late because he had already left..