My letel Prisoner ❤️ ( Ma p'tite prisonnière ❤️)

chapter 5

- As soon as you return, you take me down
- Hey what did I do? I just told the truth, you're a whore, just like your mother
- Don't speak of her like that. I shouted
- You bring men you don't even know to my house just for fun, I don't care if you sleep with all the men you want but not at my house, do it in a hotel or at the man's house but not here. he shout
- I'm not a whore! I shouted back
- Wait what are you looking for? You have a huge villa, you have everything you need to have, you have about 3 thousand dollars every two months, what else are you looking for?
- What do I do to you? I asked while crying.

I hate him with all my heart, it's his fault that my mother died, he didn't love my mother and it's the same with me, he's always looking for anything to bring me down, I'm used to that.

- It's your fault if she died, if...if you had stayed with her, she wouldn't have died because of your bastard father! But you just wanted her for fun! I say while crying
- Stop with your fake tears! Scream it
- Leave me alone and get out of my room! I shout, pushing him out of my room, slamming the door in his face.

I fall against the door

- Why me? What did I do to get all of this?

I got up and went into my bathroom looking for my faithful companion "the razor blade" I found it on the sink. I take it and I start to cut my arm where there were lots of other scars that have whitened over time, this blade has been there, witness to all my misfortunes so far, every time I feel bad I take this blade and slash myself, I feel that my misfortunes flow with the blood that flows on my arm and yes I bring it everywhere with me since my mother died. I tried several times to end my life but it never worked, why don't I leave, far from this filthy, mean, cruel world, why I still live, why I suffer, why I don't have the right to live a happy life.
One, two, four, ten, twenty-five, thirty...
My arme is now covered in blood, the blood doesn't stop flowing and that doesn't stop me from continuing, I can't stop, I continue to put a thin line which very quickly becomes deep with each shots, my bathroom is filled with blood flowing from my arm, I continue, I don't have any pain coming from my body or my heart or even my soul, I feel empty, without pain or emotion, empty is It makes me feel really good and so I continue without even stopping it until my cell phone rings in the room

I get up and get into my room, take my phone with my arm that only flows, it's crazy the speed at which the drops of blood flows from my arm, I no longer even see the color of my skin on my arm apart from the red, I answer without even looking at who it is

               Phone call

- Allô Isa

I saw this voice immediately it is chira

- Chira ...
- Are you okay ?, your voice is trembling
- ...
- Isa say something
- ...
- Are you okay?
- No ... I ... I need you
- Okay tell me where you are
- At ... C-check me ... in my ... room
- Okay please don't do anything stupid and don't move, I'm coming ok?
- Hmm

End of the phone call

She hangs up then I assaulted myself on the edge of my bed and cry all the tears of my body, my bed is very quickly covered with blood.

*~. ~.

A few minutes later, Chira arrives out the window and between

- I am here-oh my God you'r bleeding !! She said (surprise air)

She went in my bathroom then comes out a few seconds later with a lot of white towels in hand, she arrives towards me, takes my arm and wipes it with the towels until the blood stops bleeding

- what got in to you to do this are you crazy or what? She Shout  - ...
- Speak
- ...
- Answer me! You have to say something !!
- ...
- You have to come out everything you have in your heart or if not the pain will never leave !!!
- ...
- Speak damn it !!

I try to speak but nothing comes out, I can't speak when suddenly I feel a pain on my cheek, she just slap me
- What the hell ! I shout
- You finally speak!, What happened, are you crazy to do that? What do you think about doing this?
- It's not your business, leave

P O V Chira

No, but am i dreaming? She tells me to leave, I will go nowhere, so to trouble and put her ideas back in place I slap her again
- What the fuck is wrong with you ??
- I'm all good
- I ... I ...
- Go on, go out what you have in the heart
- For ... I ... I ... why ... don't you leave me? Admit you all are tied of me ... I can't take it anymore, pond and still pond of all that, I just want to leave, to leave this unhealthy world, to go as far as possible from this earth, from Every way ... people don't want me, nobody would cried my death, everyone ... hai, I don't want to live anymore, let me go, admit that you want to see me punctured, I have. .. I am completely lost, I want ... just ... leave !! She says

Crying at the same time I feel bad, how can she say that, that we do not like her, that we want or even punctured, that I want to see her died

- You say this ? That there is nobody who would cried your death? And you forget Miya, Mira, Shela, Muisa, Raiissa, ... me? I ... I am your best girlfriend but for me you are my sister, sister do you understand? How can you say that I want your death ... How? You hurt me
- I ... I'm sorry ... Sorry, I didn't meant to hurt you, I just want to stop suffering, sorry, me too for me you are a sister, and ... excuse me please. she says crying
- Listen, this is not the first time that you try you to commit a suacide, it has never worked, I too several times it never worked, I understood something two years ago, is that life always offers us the chance to be happy, and that if we decide to end our days, we lose the chance to be happy again
- But it's been years that this chance does not happen, why?
- Because it's not yet the right time, see the good side of things, if you were dead two years ago, you would not have known us
- Yes it's true, and ... Sorry again
- I would forgive you in one condition
- Wich one
- You have to promise me that you never tried to commit suicide again
- Yes it is promised
- I love you little sister
- Me too big sister

We hug when I hear the other girls arrived, always through the window and yes we love to enter through the window, they come to us and adds in our hug.