SHE MADE ME LEAVE THE COUNTRY.

Her

The next few days I kept waiting for opportunities to talk to her and as per my expectations she used to text me . I used to wait for that time of day when I get to talk to her cause talking to her was like therapy . I used to stop being worried about the outside world and issues while talking to her . I often wondered where was this person all my life . There were days I went silent but someone in me there was a hope she would notice and text me and to my surprise she always did . I was not someone who kept regular contacts though chats but her she was something different to me and even she mentioned she never really keep in touch with anyone though regular text but she replied to me .
She in between went for a trip and she was sick . I was so fucking worried about her she wasn't talking proper care either and I used to check up in regular intervals to make sure she was ok but at the very same time I did not want to bother her . She was sick before she actually left for the trip , she was so sick she even asked me if I was somewhere near to that place to drop her to the starting point but unlucky I wasn't . But words cannot express how much I wished I was nearby that day to be honest I was in a theatre with Meenu . Even though I did not know how to ride a bike very fluently that day I even imagined getting out from the movies talking Meenu's dads bike and dropping her off but she mentioned if not nearby no need as she had very less time to leave . I am not someone who regularly checks up onto someone everyday but I couldn't stop myself from doing that to her that's how much she mattered for me . I had no clue what I was feeling for her but my major request to got those days were ' God pls make her stay in my life always ' . I was so curious I wanted to know every details of her . I used to stalk people she was with to get to know her in detail . I used to remember every single word she has spoken to me and I still do .
My mind was messed up I often used to question myself am I doing it right ? What am I doing with life . I mean I in a relationship with Nith and feeling much deeper for someone else . I used to be like God what the fuck is wrong with me . My interest to meet Nith started decreasing . I always prioritised her text over anyone else . I always had time for her but never for Nith I wanted to know where she was how she was during but often forgot to check onto Nith  . I felt for bad for the way I was treating Nith but I myself had no idea what was doing on with me .
I was eagerly waiting for Resh to come back after the trip cause I started missing her so much . Finally after a week of time she came to college not to mention she was still sick as obviously she did not take proper care of her . Even in the photos taken posted by her companions in their stories I felt like she was tired and lonely and I really wanted to be there so much there , just to be there for her and to take care of her .
She came to college I did not meet her I mean i obviously say her but she did not see me as it was of course a planned attempt of me to meet her and then during the lunch break she called me but as always my phone was in silent mode therefore I did not answer and so she called Amu she she answered . Resh asked her if she can drop her to the hostel as she was not feeling well and was too tired to walk . Obviously I was longing for something to talk to her so I rushed and I saw her damn close after many days . I was wonder-stuck for sometime I did not even recall what she said . She has a different hairstyle that day and she was so fucking pretty so pretty that I don't think I will ever be able to explain . I don't know if it was actually if she looked that damn pretty or it was just all in my head but I was lost .
I was completely lost !
All I knew was I had some strong feeling for her but I  had no idea what it was 🙃.