"Sleep, Amun."
I want to. I really do. I want to lay down and sleep. I don't want to stay awake until three am.
Yes, sometimes I do it purposely. Yes sometimes I don't want to go to sleep. But half the time I do.
I want to sleep. I really mean that.
But I'm scared. The second I lay down on the side I have my throat anxiety spikes up again. My throat burns up and it feels hot. And I start panicing.
It doesn’t happen constantly. Just every now and then. But thanks to that, I'm scared of laying down and sleeping.
And yes, sometimes I just stay up because I want to talk with others or play games or do something else.
But that's why I don't want to sleep at times. I'm scared to panic again. I don't know what to do if I start panicing when I lay down it's not like I can sleep while panicing what am I supposed to do.
Yes. I do really want to sleep. I don't mean to worry you. I want to sleep. I really want to sleep. I'm sorry I can't just sleep.
