Little White Lies🤍

i don't deserve anyone

Pond POV

I am sitting in a counch at Phuwin's  house , he sleep after crying in my arms , he is sleeping on my lap now .
This is my first time seeing him this close, I am felling like my heart is going to blast any moment . He looks so innocent , even his body have his own unique scent that is making me even more crazy for him or somehow relax at the same time , some days before i never thought i can change that much because of just one person, i am even suprised by myself , i never get this angry before for someone whom i just met i guess this is what people called love.

" I think i'am going to head over heels for you phuwin " he said in whispering tone while slowly stroking his left cheek .

After 15 minutes

Phuwin wake up and felt like his face against something hard , he slowly open his eyes and he realise it's someone's chest.

" You wakeup" he lift his head his eyes  meet the eyes who are looking at him softly with concern in his voice , " are you feeling better now? " Phuwin realise he staring at pond too long , he stand up from his lap .

" yaa i am ok and thank you for saving me from " he stop in between remembering what happened earlier.

Pond understood him and said" don't feel guilty u did nothing wrong .

Phuwin - But why this always happens to me only , did i do something wrong.
Am i this bad . ( He said tears in his eyes ).

Pond - i know i am just a stranger to you but you can share anything you want with me i will never gonna judge you .

Phuwin can't hold his emotions anymore he cry even harder and said closing his eyes ,

" i can share with you anything right u said it yourself you wanna know , when i was a kid , a home teacher used to come to teach me and one day there was no one in our house just that teacher and me , he...he tried to rape me i was just a kid so I don't know what was that but i don't like that " he look at pond to see any reaction but there was nothing he feel glad that pond doesn't petty on him he started speaking again.

" I took courage and tell my mom one day everything but she didn't even believe me she said i must be mistaken him ,
But i don't she never believed me she didn't believe his own son, until now i feel depressed i can't live taking that shit in my heart anymore it's hurt me , hurt me so much that sometimes i just want to end my fucking life ( he shouted , he went towards the kitchen and got the knife but pond stopped him and hug him .

Pond - please don't hurt yourself it's hurting me too seeing you like this .

Phuwin - why are you being this good to me .

Pond - Because i like you .

Phuwin - why are you liking me i don't deserve anyone  ( he said with a bitter laugh ) .

Pond -  no, you deserve everything but this world didn't deserve you don't deserve my angel and about why am i liking you Because i want to be with you , i want to love you , i want to care for you , i want to be your safe zone , i want you to be yourself with me.
Because i love you that i can even ruin whatever stole your smile , myself included ....

Phuwin hug him back thinking how can someone love him understand him even better than his own parents.

Thank youuu for reading my story 💜💜