Something's Missing

Part 6 - Kya chupa raha hai

(Kahani ab tak - Ishan gets hit on the head while playing cricket, loses a month's worth of memories. Shubman takes good care of him.  Realizes he loves Shubman, but the twist is they had already confessed and Ishan had forgotten that part. They are momentarily happy but something happens (unrevealed yet) that causes Ishan to lose his memory again and shubman is fretting and distressed, unable to cope. Meanwhile Ishan is wondering why Shubman isn't around him 24/7. )

Ishan was confused after Shubman's visit. Something was bothering Shubman a lot, he could see it. But what? They weren't feuding that much was obvious. It would be a huge huge shock for him if they were. But there seemed to be something Shubman was holding back. It also felt like de ja vu. Then again, it probably was de ja vu. He had probably gone through it before as well. He sighed. He had a lot of time alone with his thoughts with no screen handy. He had been asked to not read much either.

He was essentially in "mein aur meri tanhayi aksar ye baatein karti hai" mode. (Movie dialogue ref - me and my loneliness often talk to each other). People kept dropping by of course but these visiting hours were a bitch. He even briefly considered calling Akash bhai to see if they could be more flexible with that. I mean bring the richest family in India had its powers right? But then better sense prevailed. As he lay staring at the walls or the scenery outside for hours, he felt a sense of hopelessness setting in.

It had become so hard to even function without a glimpse of Shubman that it occurred to him, the desolation he felt was in fact the love he felt for Shubman. Why did this boy take up all his waking thoughts and nightly dreams. It all made sense. He was in love with his Gill. What in the world? He had known before as well that there were feelings but he hadn't counted on being so hopelessly in love.

That made him think. Had he confessed to Gill and was he rejected? Is that why Gill was maintaining his distance from him? Did he feel like a burden to his best friend. Or was the said best friend feeling guilty for rejecting him? Something was off. He just had to know what!

But the realization of love meant he knew what he had to do next. Maintain his distance from Shubman. He wasn't going to burden him anymore. His boy deserved better than a guy pursuing him against his wishes. A guy who had probably done that before as well and couldn't even remember? Wow, is he that lame? Hopefully not. If he were, then time to course correct.

As if answering his prayers, Mayank came in to meet him.

"Abbey ye tu baar baar kya kar raha hai" (Aye.. What do you keep doing time and again)

Ishan pouted. Mayank laughed. "Tu sach mein kya kar raha hai sweetie.." (But really, What are you doing sweetie?_

"Meine kya kiya" (What did I do?)  Ishan said with an exaggerated pout. Mayank couldn't stop the laughter. "Acha baba tune kuch nahi kiya. I just feel ki I keep visiting you when you're sick" (Ok baba, you didn't do anything. I just feel like I keep visiting you when you're sick)

"Oh toh tu pichli baar bhi aaya tha. Aur bata mujhe" (Oh.. So you had come last time as well. Tell me more)

Mayank looked confused. "Kya batana hai". (What do you want me to say?)  Ishan shrugged.

"Tu teek hai na sweetie. Pichli baar tho phir bhi hotel room mein tha. Bas ek cheez hi same hai" (Are you alright sweetie? The last time you were in a hotel room. Only one thing is constant)

"Kya" (What)

"Shubman"

"Shubman ne kya kiya" (What did Shubman do?) Ishan asked. "Pichli baar bhi mein jab aaya, tera dhyaan wahi rakh raha tha. Abhi bhi dekho tho doctors ke peeche wahi pada hai" (When I came the last time, he was taking care of you. Even now he's behind the doctors)