haikyuu short stories

hurt // oikawa tooru

Inspired by: hurt - newjeans
oikawa tooru x reader

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"Y/N!!!!" As you were getting ready for class you hear a familiar voice that tends to ring in your head.

You slightly turn just enough to see his figure running towards you with a big smile. Behind him is his best friend Iwaizumi Hajime, who is also your friend.

Obviously the boy is Oikawa Tooru, you two have been friends since middle school but recently got closer since you, Tooru, and Hajime had the same home room. And plus you're the Aoba Johsai's volleyball manager so naturally you got closer.

During that time you developed feelings for him. Really, Tooru is a great guy but he's so famous and liked by everyone that you feel that you're not worthy enough to even talk to him.

But the main reason why you can't tell him your feelings is because you're scared of rejection. It would ruin your friendship, and you wouldn't want to ruin friendship over some petty crush. Over time it'll fade, hopefully.

"Good morning Tooru, good morning Hajime" you say as they both get closer to where you stand, you wait for them and observe their faces.

To think you're friends with the most powerful, beautiful, and greatest people still amazes you. You smile at them then begin walking away because class is about to start. This is the only year that you're in a different homeroom than the two of them.

At first you felt disappointed but soon realized that it could be a blessing especially with your crush on Tooru, this could help lessen your attraction towards him. You don't want to ruin your friendship with him, you want this last year to be the best one yet.

You didn't realize that you've ended up in your classroom, you were too lost in your thoughts. Still Tooru and Hajime were behind you, talking to each other before stopping at the entrance of your classroom.

"Hello? Y/N, you haven't said anything for a few minutes, are you mad?" Tooru sulks as Hajime stares at you with concern in his eyes. You turn around to face them.

"No I'm not mad, class is about to start so please go back before you two become late." You use both hands to turn them around and gently push them right outside the door before shutting it.

The second you shut the door you could feel the heat of blush coming upon your cheeks, this always happens when you're with Tooru and every time you have to make an excuse why. Which is also why you've been missing some practices, I mean you're just the manager so it's not like they need you.

There's another manager there, but she's one of Tooru's obsessive fans. You feel bad for the team, they have to go through people like that. But that's not enough for you to go to practice! You can't become a blushing mess! You won't confess and you won't be the one getting hurt.

You seat yourself by the window. Your desk mate is your closest friend, Y/F/N they're the only one who knows about your secret crush. After a few minutes of just sitting alone and enjoying the landscape outside your window, you hear the chair next to you move, making you turn your head to see them.

"Good morning Y/N" they say as they place their needed items in the cubby of their desk and bag on the hook. You reply with a simple good morning before confessing to them for the nth time.

"Should I say something to him? I don't want to get hurt and ruin our friendship but I also don't want to hide my feelings forever, I haven't hung out with him in ages!" Your friend looks at you with relief, the last time you vented your feelings and frustration was a few weeks ago.

"Hold up Y/N, first you need to calm down and take a breather, don't stress yourself out over Oikawa, please focus on yourself more." They place their hands on your shoulders, motioning their thumbs up and down.

You take a deep breath before facing them again, were you really caught up in this? But your friendship with Tooru also matters.

"I know, I'm sorry. I just..." you trail off, looking in the distance to reign focus within yourself, thinking if you should say it or not, majority of your mind has made that you shouldn't say anything for the same reasons you already discussed about.

But your heart says to confess, maybe he'll say yes, and the worst that could happen in they he says no but you still are good friends!

You close your eyes to keep focus, is this really happening? And in class right now?? Wait did class start yet?

You open your eyes to see the teacher walk in, taking attendance which makes you and your friend turn your bodies to face the teacher, you both know that this conversation will continue later. When no one is around and school is out.

The school day has finally ended and you already told Coach that you can't make it because your mom called you last minute to help out with something important for her work. It was a lie, a bad lie, but Coach still believed it.

You walk home as fast as you can with your closest friend next to you, telling you things that aren't really relevant to Tooru but good to fill in the time between walking from school to your house.

When you get home both you and Y/F/N place your bags on the floor and head to the living room where you two talk about things related to Tooru and other things.

"The teacher came in at a bad time but now you can tell me what you're going to do, no one is here and I promise I won't tell anyone what you think" you trust their word, it's been years since you started to like Tooru and since then no one has known.

You sigh and look them in the eye before telling them what you'll do that could either ruin your friendship or keep it the same.

"I'm not going to tell him how I feel, I rather stay silent then risk getting hurt" you stare at your friend's face to see their reaction.

They sighs then softly smiles, nodding their head in approval.

"No matter what path your chose, I'll be here to support you. It would've been amazing to see you confess your long term feelings with him but I respect what you choose to do Y/N." You feel like crying rn.

You hug them and thank them so much for being with you all this time. They laugh lightheartedly at your actions and hug you back as equally.

Time has passed since that moment and let's say it's been a bit crazy ever since then. First, you finally decided to get over this fear of going to practice but you still distance yourself from Tooru.

He had taken notice of this and had literally begged you to go back to having conversations with him, you immediately became flustered and a blushing mess because you've never seen him act this way before.

So every now and then you talk to him however, you still can't have a normal conversation with him anymore so you try to find any excuse to leave either that be to injure yourself or even embarrass yourself.

The worse part is that at night you can't stop thinking about it, you feel like Tooru is also distancing himself from you and oh how it makes you feel so empty and in the morning your daily routine is just sad and dull without him. But it's for the best, hopefully.

Present time, you still feel sense of emptiness and no energy and courage to confess, having the fear of being rejected and hurt. Your last year is about to be up and you'd say that avoiding your crush has been so far successful, kinda?

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Oikawa POV

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This year has been anything but successful! First fricking Karasuno High School kills my chance at beating Shiratorizawa and going to nationals!! Plus the amount of stress that's piling up is becoming bigger and bigger!

Next school has still been crazy, I don't hate it but I don't love it. Recently I've been feeling empty and sad at school and home, especially since Y/N has been avoiding me.

And lastly, you already know but Y/N has been avoiding me for months!! Our last hangout has been so long ago I don't remember it. I miss her. Besides Hajime, she was the person that would be there for me, would listen to me ramble about whatever, I felt the happiest I've ever been since becoming her best friend.

but one day she suddenly stopped talking to me, barely came to practices, and avoided me for some reason. God knows why! Did I do something wrong? Did I say something that caused all of this?

I stay up late in my room overthinking about her, only her. Everyday I feel a sense of guilt. Why would she just walk away?

The next day the boys decided to come over and hangout with me, I greeted them with an extremely sad expression. Sighing in the faces of Hajime, Makki, and Mattsun. Hoping that they get the hint to talk to me and let me vent my heart out to them.

Hajime noticed first, giving me looks of disgust because he's already heard it for the nth time. But that doesn't mean he doesn't care, I know he cares for me and my problems.

Makki takes the hint too by staring into my eyes, making communication with me telepathically, asking what's wrong like he hasn't heard it for the nth time.

Mattsun notices a little later and is the only person that actually cares! He asks me the question that I've been waiting for.

"Oikawa, what's wrong? Don't tell me it's about Y/N again..." he gives me a look, a look that says 'Don't say it, we already know'.

To save you time and save the author time, I'll summarize what happened, I told them, everything, how I feel, how I think Y/N feels, what I want to do, what I should have done, what I think she should do, question why she did what she's doing right now, cry, fake cry, hug Hajime for support, be held by Makki because he loves me, watch Mattsun loose interest, all the pizzazz.

After all of that, I take questions and advice.

"Yes Mr, Iwaizumi, tell the audience your question for Mr. Oikawa" I place the fake mic up to Hajime's mouth for him to speak, he moves my hand away and gives me advice.

"Why don't you go and confess your feelings to her?" He intensely stares into my eyeballs, piercing my soul for taking up his precious time.

WHAT.

"I HAVE FEELINGS FOR Y/N???!!" Wow, that came out louder than what I had imagined. So now I have feelings for her. Who knew?

"Stupid! All of this venting and crying and you still don't realize you have feelings for her?? Are you dense?" He scolds me, I feel defeated, hurt, and most of all, in love.

Who knew that I had feelings for Y/N!! Wait...

Maybe she doesn't like me, I don't want to risk our relationship, I just have to get closer to her before the school year ends then at the end of the day I confess! That's a great plan.

"That's a horrible plan Oikawa." Hajime scolds me again, I give him a look of confusion, how does he know I was thinking of a plan...

"You're super dense. I quit. I'm going to go play Shampoo with Makki and Mattsun." Hajime gets up from his place on my living room couch and walks over to the dinning table where Makki and Mattsun are playing with cards that they found around my house.

They left awhile ago, stating their helpful ideas of saying I should kiss her and marry her, and propose to her while singing my heart out to her. I love those ideas so much that I wrote them down in detail.

It was a Saturday afternoon, we were at my empty house, Iwaizumi dreamed of going home, Makki dreamed of winning against Mattsun, Mattsun dreamed of getting food, and I dreamed of Y/N.

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Third Person POV

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You dreamed of school ending.

It was getting close to the end of the school year and while there have been blushing moments with Tooru, nothing happened to the point you felt like dissolving into the grounds of the Earth.

And now you feel that he knows what you're doing. He now comes to your house every day to walk with you, he gives you gifts of simple stuff every now and then, he makes sure you're eating well and even packs an extra bento for you and him to eat, he even makes time for you and him to finally hangout.

And now you're feeling the same emotion that you've felt for the past year when being friends with Tooru. Love. Corny ass love.

Nevertheless, you promised that you won't express your love for him, you would rather stay silent then risk your friendship, and you have a feeling that this is the best way for both of you, hopefully.

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speedrun this so sorry for the errors...
also hi guys I'm back I might make a part 2 if anyone wants it but it won't go along with the song but maybe the meaning behind hurt 🤔🤔