In which Ni-ki's boyfriend Sunoo breaks up with him and Ni-ki has a hard time coping with it.
"𝑾𝒉𝒂𝒕'𝒔 𝒘𝒓𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒚𝒐𝒖?"
"𝑾𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒅𝒐 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏,
𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒅𝒖𝒎𝒃𝒂𝒔𝒔?"
-𝗛𝗼𝗼𝗻𝗸𝗶
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Ni-ki didn't know how to feel. He felt as if he were a porcelain doll on a shelf, ready to be complimented. He was ready to be praised and to be precious, and he hoped that he would be praised by Sunoo.
He didn't know that he'd pick him up and break him into tiny little pieces. Nobody has expected it.
Nobody knew that it was Sunoo. Who would've?
But it happened just like that.
He didn't know that his heart was made of porcelain either or that Sunoo was the one who was meant to break it.
He wanted Sunoo by his side, so why was he crying in his bedroom? That was normal, but he couldn't lean on anyone.
Why did he have to break his heart? He just wanted to be loved.
He hated the feeling of heartbreak.
Sunoo didn't love him anymore. Sunoo didn't see him the same way as he did before. All that love was sucked into a black hole, and it was never going to be back.
He wished it could be back, though.
Why can't he be sucked into it too? So, that he can be forgotten? Without Sunoo there was no happiness. He wished that Sunoo would never forget about it; maybe one day, he would feel a sense of regret when he'll be gone.
They've been in a relationship for almost a year, and the sudden breakup right before their anniversary shattered him.
He remembered how happy they were, how he liked to tease the older, and how much attention he gave him.
The late-night calls, when they used to binge-watch K-dramas and go to sleep at 3 am- The secret dates they used to have or how they would sneak out just to go to some random restaurant to hang out together.
That was all left in vain, and all that was left for him to feel was pain.
The love was gone.
He didn't know that he had done something wrong. Was it his fault?
He had school tomorrow, but how could he endure that, and how could he glue his heart back? Will he ever be able to love again?
Would tape work? The super glue?
Everything would be fine, right?
He didn't know.
He glanced at his phone wallpaper.
It was a picture of Sunoo eating ice cream. He has always teased him about it and mocked him for liking mint chocolate ice cream because it tasted like toothpaste to the younger, and Sunoo didn't mind that one bit.
At least he hoped that Sunoo didn't mind it.
What if that was the reason for their breakup?
Maybe, he should've been more accepting of the older.
Maybe it was the ice cream's fault...
Ni-ki can still fix his relationship. He can't bear to have his heart broken just like that.
He couldn't believe that he still had some of the older man's clothes in his closet that he had to return to him.
He swiped through the photos of them, hesitating to delete any of them. Why was that so hard?
He thought that Sunoo was the one for him, the one that could take away all the pain he had felt; he didn't know that he'd be the cause of his pain.
He closed his eyes as his phone slipped from his hands, falling to the floor. He didn't bother to pick it up; he didn't have enough strength for that.
It all happened a week ago, after all.
That was the last thought that crossed his mind before falling into a deep slumber.
He was too tired and stressed, and he didn't want to eat anything even though Heeseung scolded him about it, but nothing could be done; nobody knew why he was so gloomy all of a sudden.
Jake asked him about it. He even tried to talk about it, too, but Ni-ki couldn't.
He wanted to respect Sunoo's last wish and didn't speak about it.
