Forever My Love

Alex; Chapter 17

I'm sick to my stomach. The small gasp she made when I stabbed her. It repeats in my mind. I almost lost her because of me. I know she told me not to blame myself, but I can't help it. I was in the moment. My mother was going to kill her for her selfish dream. I wanted to savor it, but I couldn't after I realized what I did. What I did to her. My mother is awful person and her death was coming.

I'm sitting in a chair. Right next to her bed. She is sleeping. Sleeping peacefully. My hands are still shaking. Adrenaline is my worst enemy. I run my fingers through her hair. I wish I didn't take her to the castle, but I didn't know where I could've taken her. She was bleeding. Horrible. It haunts me. I'm just glad she is alive.

I am exhausted. It's midnight and I still can't sleep. I hear her soft mumbles in her sleep. It's adorable. "Al..Alex" I raise an eyebrow as I hear my name. Is she sleep talking? "I'm right here princess" I rest my hand on hers. "I.." it's hard to make out what she is trying to say. "Please don't leave" she shouts. It seems like she is having a nightmare. I want to wake her up. I want comfort her. "Ar...lo?" I shiver as I hear her say that name. Arlo hurt her. She got her revenge but it doesn't make up what he did to her. He's sick. "Get out!" My grip on her hand tightens. Whatever her nightmare is it's about Arlo. I watch as her body tenses up. "Princess I'm right here with you" her face as she saw I wasn't there in the forest with her pangs me with guilt. I needed to be there with her, but I passed out when fumes collided with me. She is shaking. I have to do something. I place my hands on her shoulders. Shaking her softly. "Please, princess wake up" I whisper. She isn't waking up. "Arlo! Get away from me!" Her words are clearer than they were. I'm freaking out. She doesn't deserve to relive her trauma. Especially in a nightmare. I'm starting to shake her even more, "please baby, wake up" and then I saw her eyes flutter open. She looks panicked. Her eyes stares into mine. I didn't realize I was on top of her. "Alex...?" She whispers "I'm here, with you" I whisper back. "Why are you on top of me?" "I was scared... you... you were talking in your sleep and your whole body was shaking. I just couldn't watch you in pain" her face is beautiful. Everything about her is beautiful and I can't afford to lose her. "I had a nightmare, Alex" I watch as she places her hand on my thigh. "Thank you" she smiles "I will do anything for you, princess" "princess? I thought I was your baby" she heard that? "What, how did you" "I just know, amor" "amor?" "It means, love" my smile grows "is that fine? You give me nicknames all the time" "it's more than okay, baby" I cup her face. I want to kiss her. I want to explore her.