do not cross that line [sunsun✓]

thirty-nine

2 weeks later.

Sunoo's eye twitched after he bit the rock hard lollipop that broke in half. He was obnoxiously nibbling on the stick like his life depended on it while his psychologist was sat in front of him, observing.

"I didn't peg you to be someone who liked lollipops" Dr. Kim Namjoon started, putting on a small smile.

"I decided to quit smoking... I'm probably having my withdrawal symptoms" Sunoo replied before opening another stick. He missed the thought of having something in between his lips.

He missed nicotine.

but he shouldn't.

He kept telling himself that he needed to live long if he wanted to be fucked by the actor for a very long time. Although this is what he often tells himself, he knew deep down that there was something deeper about it.

He didn't want to harm the actor in any way, knowing that he's asthmatic. He just can't keep jerking around when the actor shows him nothing but understanding. He thought that's the least he could do.

He's problematic after all.

"What made you quit?"

"Just because... I want to" his doctor smiled and started jotting down something so all he could do was remain calm and eat his candies in peace.

They talked. Almost like a usual conversation regarding the things or maybe recommending a better point of view. Once the doctor was done analyzing, he placed his chart on the small table before casually looking at Sunoo.

He was seeing something.

An improvement.

"You look much better Mr. Kim"  Sunoo's ears perked up from the sudden compliment so he instantly raised his brow.

'what is he talking about? Of course I look better, I'm fcking gorgeous'

"Huh? I look completely the same, nothing's changed"

"You think?"

"Yes"

"Well, I think otherwise" that phrase alone made Sunoo quiet. He knew that the psychologist was picking him apart, bit by bit and what annoys him is that he couldn't read it at all. Confused, he leaned back on his chair when the doctor looked at him straight in the eye, elbows on top of his knees and playfully clasped his hands.

"Tell me Mr. Kim, are you perhaps... In love?" with that, Sunoo froze. His throat went dry and his heart started racing as the image of a man flashed before his eyes.

He felt like he was caught over something that shouldn't be mentioned at all.

When he got back his composure, he gripped the sides of his chair tightly before looking outside the window.

"Damn right, I am"

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5:07 pm

"This is a bad idea" Sunoo commented as he and Sunghoon were seated at the backseat of his car, on their way to the mansion. Heeseung and Jungwon were both at the front but nevertheless kept themselves ready.

Attending that so called dinner was like serving yourself into a den of wolves on a silver platter and only the three knew that.

"Everything will be fine" Sunghoon assured before gently pulling the bitten stick of lollipop from Sunoo's mouth who kept grinding it with his teeth. He then softly rubbed the younger's bottom lip using his thumb.