EUNOIA

𝘄𝗮𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗿𝗲𝗿𝘀 𝗱𝗲𝘃𝗼𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻

family is what you deem it as, never forced, and never wrong.

MISA . CAT . RO

to have a friend is one thing, to have a daughter is another. a friend is one you cherish, like, care about and hold dear. a daughter is one you adore, love unconditionally, hold closer to your heart than most, and one who is unreplaceable. to me, you're my daughter.  

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for you will forever be dear to me, and mean oh so much for eternity to come. then again, how could you not? you're sweet, respective, kind, talented, appreciative, caring, beautiful, interesting and so much more than i could ever list. and for these reasons and many more, i love you.

unreplaceable and unforgettable. there's not and never will be a single soul on this wretched earth that could ever replace you. for you have left an indent in my heart, there to stay and never leave. your face and talent one of a kind, your personality the only of its sort. you are you and that makes you unreplaceable.

i couldn't care what actions you may take unless it harms you. because no matter the choices you make, nothing could make me hate you, nor dislike you. you could commit something oh so vile, and i'd still see you as my own. not a soul could change that fact, and not a soul with less occurances could replace you as my daughter.

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encouraging others seems to be a major skill of yours as well. the way you help and offer others to try new things and keep at it with the positive reinforcement adds that much needed layer of support for many. i know for me you've boosted my desire to draw, learn new things, and even open up further.

heavy on the learning aspect. due to your constant support and willingness to offer knowledge i've been motivated to pick up and learn new things. drawing not being the only one now, as i want so desperately to learn arabic. and the little phrases and pronunciation you happily teach me only motivates me further to learn the language.

not only do you encourage and help me in a knowledge way, but also in a health way. i so, so, so severely appreciate every moment that you encourage me to try to eat more, because even that little bit of motivation a day feels fucking wonderful. and the same with me wanting to start working out daily. all the little words and all the big ones are slowly adding up and helping me over time, i really couldn't have been blessed with a sweeter daughter. 

you make me want to be healthier in my eating habits and bodily care due to your extreme support and encouragement. no matter how much i struggle, if i bring it up you're always right there, ready to offer me much needed advice. no matter if the problem is large or small, reoccurring or a one and done you always try to offer support in some way, which is more than i could ever ask for.

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my adoration for you flourishes beyond the seams of what i can even contain, and i can foresee it continuing growing for a long while. i don't believe it could ever reach a stopping point anyhow, it'll forever pile, overflowing basic comprehension that we're used to. because that 'limit' is never a limit, you cannot cap my love for you at any point in time.

i may not be able to express it through these words, and i know how long its taken me to even write this small collection of them. for that, i apologise. every word you've read from here on is from the bottom of my heart, not fabricated, not forged, pure and as honest as you could ever imagine. and my words of appreciation will forever be that way, and i have damned myself to sorrow if you will or have ever doubted such.

and maybe proof of that is how reserved i can be with others. everyone seems to drain me mentally to where i find myself avoiding showing my presence online. but you, you are one of the few people i could talk days with and never get tired or emotionally drained. you're the type of person that makes you want to keep messaging, day in and day out.

and even if i don't message you day in to day out, i'd like you to know that it's not because i'm bored of you, or because you drain me. it's solely because i don't ever wish to find myself annoying you. because fuck, if you ever find me annoying i'm not sure how i'd handle myself. because that's one of the last things i'd ever want to hear. and i even doubt i could live with myself if i do.

not to mention how much i utterly despise the thought of having children. how much i refrain from pondering what it'd be like. you, would be my exception. you are, my exception. if having a kid means some other person, count me the fuck out. but if you were that kid? i'd work my ass off to give you the life you deserve. and i will, work my ass off once we meet. i will, take you to places you've always wanted to go to, just so you can have that experience you deserve.

and its not an if you were my kid, because fuck, you are, my kid. and not a thing can change that. and as my kid i promise that both in the future and the present, i'll do my best to give you the life you deserve. the care you need and the support you may not have. it doesn't matter to me if we're tied by blood or not, you are my child, my daughter, a piece of my world. someone i strive to be better for.

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i may not have reached the word count i oh, so desperately wished to conquer. but to me it shows that even with all the care for you i possess, it's strong enough to reach the point where i can't physically nor mentally put even a quarter of those feelings into words. i adore you not as a friend, but as a daughter. my daughter.