The Life of Carson Whitmore

Chapter 6

Thursday, December 6th: 2018

Austin

       Carter has been leaving his house a little bit more. He just keeps to himself mostly. Everytime I see him he still looks so sad. He puts on a fake smile in front of the pack members. I know that he feels lost without Carson being here. Carson has been gone for 2 months now. Things with me are still the same. I am still sleeping with other girls everyday and feel so guilty afterward but I can't help it. I am a player after all, and It makes me feel numb so I don't have to think about Carson that much. I still regret rejecting Carson as my mate. No one knows that she is my mate yet. I haven't even told Carter. So today I have made a big decision to tell Carter about Carson being my mate. I know that isn't going to turn out so well. Knowing that I'm the reason that she ran away in the first place. At 7:30 am I drove over to Carter's house with a lump in my throat. I walked up to the door. I am scared as hell as I knock on the door and wait for Carter. He opened the door and I could see his hair in a mass. "Come in." He said, rubbing his eyes. I must have woken him up. I walked in and he closed the door behind me. "What are you doing here at 8 in the morning?" He asked as we walked into the living room. "I need to talk to you, it's something that is important." I said as I sat down on the sofa trying to keep myself together. He had a curious look on his face. "What is it?" He asked. "Umm, Well." I scratched the back of my head trying to find the words. "You know how Carson ran away?" I said, trying not to jump right into it. "Yeah." He said, looking at me. "I think I know why she did it." I said. "Why did she do it?" he asked. "It was because of me." I said with my head down. I was looking at my hands rubbing them together. He looked at me wide eyed. "WHAT? WHY?" He said. Almost yelling with anger in his voice. "I.." I tried to say but I took a deep breath. "I kind of rejected her after finding out she was my mate." I said and then I felt his fist connected with my jaw and I hit the floor. He kept punching me in the face. I let him keep hitting me until he finally stopped. I looked up at him to see the very furious Carter that I have never seen before in my life. "WHY DID YOU REJECT HER?" Carter yelled with his fist still clutched. "I DIDN'T WANT A WEAK LUNA." I yelled back and then I heard myself say "I didn't want to settle with just one girl." That is what I will regret saying later. "When did you find out that Carson was your mate? And when did you reject her?" He asked as he was trying to calm down, clutching his fist still. "At my 18th birthday party, I found out that she was my mate and I rejected her the next morning," I said to him as I was trying to sit up. "What do you mean by that? You were with all of us hanging out the next morning." He said with anger in his voice. "I kind of slept with her and I got up the next morning and rejected her after having sex with her that night." I said and he threw a punch that hit me right in the nose. I heard it crack. He yelled at me after punching me in the face. "GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE YOU FUCKIN SON-OF-A-BITCH!!!!!" I got up from the floor and walked out of the house to my car holding my nose. My face was sore and I knew there was blood on my shirt from my nose. I pulled down my mirror in the car to look at my face. 'Yep a lot of blood everywhere, fuck.' I took out the tissues that I had in my glove-box to wipe my nose and face off. My nose hurt like crazy so I know it was broken, but it would heal within 4 to 5 days with my wolf. I left Carter's house and went back to my house. I noticed my mom's car in the driveway. I walked into my house with my face down. I was avoiding my mom and the questions that I know that she is going to ask. I went straight to my bedroom. I stayed in my room until the bruises had healed without anyone noticing. Hours later. I walked down to the kitchen to get myself something to drink. As I walked into the kitchen to see that my mom was still here.

"Austin, what's wrong?" She asked me. 'I knew that was coming.' I said in my mind. "Nothing mom." I said as I looked away. I knew if she saw my face she would know that something was wrong. "It isn't nothing Austin, you have been looking depressed ever since Carson has been gone." Mom said. I could hear her walking. "It's nothing." I told her again as I was looking at the floor. "Tell me son, I might be able to help you." she said with worry in her voice. "Alright then." I said as I turned around to look at her. I told her everything from the time that I started bullying Carson up until the day I found out that she ran away. "I am very disappointed in you Austin." She said, as she shook her head. I just looked at her. I couldn't say anything. It hurt me to hear her say that. "My first question is why would you ever think about bullying her after her parents had just passed away?" My mom said with a little bit of curiosity in her voice. "I hated her. I thought that if her parents weren't there anymore no one would care about her. She would just be worthless." I said with guilt. I just felt more guilty of what I did. "So you're saying that if your dad and I passed away you were going to be worthless to the whole world and this pack?" Mom asked as she pointed her finger at me. I watched my mom's face turn from anger to sadness. "Her parents just passed away. That was the hardest time for her. But Instead of you being there for her like an alpha should have been, you go and decide to ruin her life by bullying and with rumors." Mom said as she put her hands on her hips. "Yeah... I guess so." I said as I looked at the floor. "I thought I taught you better than that, Austin. But I guess I didn't. And why sleep with her when you knew you were going to reject her anyway?" The words she said just made me feel like shit. "My wolf took control. I couldn't do anything." I said hoping she wouldn't figure out that I was lying, even though I did have control. "If your wolf was in control you would have marked her and you would've been able to find her by now. So your wolf didn't take control and you are lying to me right now, so tell me the truth, Austin." She demanded. My mother knew that I couldn't go against her demands. "Okay, I did have control but I just didn't want to mark her. I didn't think she would run away. If I knew that she was going to run away, I would have never rejected her." I said as I felt my heart starting to cry out in pain, so did my wolf inside of me. It hurt like hell. "Have you told Carter yet?" she asked. "Yeah, I told him this morning. He punched me in the face and broke my nose." I said as I rubbed my nose. "I know I am your mother but you deserve it. But since it has been hours, you can go back and talk to Carter. He must have calmed down by now. Do not use your alpha voice and you better not hit him." my mom said then she left the kitchen. After thinking about it for a while, I decided to go see Carter again.