Broken Beyond Repair

One

I wake to the sound of my stupid alarm clock ringing. I sigh, another day of pain and torture. I drag myself out of bed head to the bathroom and sigh. No matter how hard I try not to I still end up looking in the mirror, all I see is a broken useless girl with elbow length tangled brown hair and dull blue eyes. I brush my teeth, splash water on my face and put throw on black sweatpants and a dark blue hoodie.
"Finally Addie, there you are I was beginning to think you had died." my mom says with a laugh as I come down the stairs. If only she knew. I gave her a small smile in return.
"For goodness sakes why are you wearing a hoodie it's 75 degrees out?" (Fahrenheit).
"It's cozy" I reply putting on a smile while subconsciously tugging my sleeves down.
"Ok well what do you want for breakfast."
"I need to get to school early to finish some homework, I'll just eat there."
"Ok sweetheart have a great day at school!"
I give her a side hug before going out the door. I put my headphones on and play music as I'm walking. I've never liked AirPods so I just stick with noise canceling headphones, it helps me feel like I'm alone and it's just me and the music.

When did it end? all the enjoyment
I'm sad again, don't tell my boyfriend
It's not what he's made for
What was I made for?
Cause I, Cause I
I don't know how to feel
But someday I might
Think I forgot how to be happy
Something I'm not, but something I can be
Something I wait for
Something I'm made for
(What was I made for-Billie Eilish)

I turn off my headphones and put them away as i entered into the atrium. I stiffened at the sudden noise working my way through the crowd of teenagers chatting, joking and shoving each other around. I made it to my first class five minutes before the bell rang, yes I lied about eating at school, but I can't help it I'm just not hungry. I walked toward the back of the room and plopped down in the corner seat. Some people hate having math first thing in the morning but since it's my best subject I didn't mind.

I looked up in surprise as someone sat down next to me. Nobody ever sits with me. To my astonishment it's my childhood best friend Kathrine.
"Hey Adds" ugh she still has that stupid nickname for me. I've tried to get her to stop but she never has. It's quite annoying actually cause then other people start calling me that and I have to awkwardly tell them I don't want to be called that.
"Hey, i think your in the wrong classroom"
"Haha nope, just got switched."
"Cool"
"Hey, how come your sitting over here alone?"
"Oh uh all my friends are in other classes" i said quickly. Truth is I don't have any friends. I act like I don't mind, but on the inside it makes me really sad.
"Well not anymore! Now you've got me!"
"Yeah" I did my best to match her level of excitement, but probably failed miserably. We turn back to the teacher simultaneously as she starts talking again. Boy, this is going to be one interesting class.

A/n
Sorry it's not great I'm not very good a beginnings😬.
Feel free to give me any advice, I'm kind of new to writing so it helps me a lot.
Have a nice day.