sorry I can't

Henry's deal

Hey, it is me Henry, alive and in words (faking from 13rw), I am about to tell you my deal and why I don't know what I did wrong, but you can guess, if I'd guess maybe I'd be even right, if I could know that something was happening...

This was the time in the past like I said in previous chapter. It is not easy to take, now that I know the truth, because you still don't know it. Here the horror part begins, the part where I show you around my home and family friends and girlfriends... Everything started here, not anywhere else, right here on our couch in living room. Guess I could have known...

It was a Friday night, 3 weeks before our trip to New York, here is something I didn't tell you before. I had a girlfriend. Her name was Kaya. I loved her name. She was sitting on our couch reading some teenage magazines she brought from home. She was busy I guess. Her black hair were falling down to her shoulders... They were always brushed and perfect. Her stye was comply different from Sophia's. She wore crop tops in pink and purple colors and short pants in black or white colors. She was the type of girl that wore high heels in her teenage years. She did anything to look nice. That was kind of the reason why I wanted her from the start.

I wasn't the only one with a girlfriend. Now I'll just jump to the important stuff. My brother had a girlfriend too. She was complitly normal and boring. She wore normal shirts, and sometimes cute skirts. Her hair were always tied in a pony tale. She was cute, but not like my girlfriend. I know my brother didn't love her. He was always looking after mine. I wasn't mad because everyone wanted her and I'm sure Kaya didn't want me, but for now I was still with her... On the couch...

Tv was playing. It was quiet and nobody talked. We were all some kind of bad mood this day. Mom just watched us.

Suddenly Kaya standed up and went to the bathroom. Soon she screamed... Of course my brother took a chance on her and went after her in the bathroom looking worried. Maybe he was but I don't know. I didn't stand up, but I should. I knew I should. It was kind of my foult and lately I was blaming myself for what happened. It didn't happen now, it happened in New York, but anyway, she screamed and brother was there for her. He didn't come from bathroom. He was there with her long time.
I didn't care, I had in my mind ideas about breaking up with her, but I guess my brother did that in my name...

Kaya like always wanted atantion, scream was just to scare you (and me), she knew I won't come look after her so she took a chance and kissed my brother while they were alone in bathroom. Don't ask me if there was more, because it wasn't, plus I'm not kind of person to tell you stories like this... Swear nothing happen... (Learned this words from tv, I guess)

When brother came from the bathroom with a lipstick on his chicks I knew what to do. I looked at his girlfriend and kissed her. She was my type not some stupid Kaya, we were never perfect together, but I guess I got girlfriend after breaking up with one in a second. But this is not a point. Brother didn't like what I've done so he slapped me. Then kicked me, then hit me... And now I am just being dramatic, sorry. I was ok, I guess... For now...

If you love drama this is for you. After he hit me mom started telling some stupid things, that I wanted just to ignore so I went outside. I love being outside. I always did. I didn't went alone. Well, I wanted but Clara went after me (jp my brothers ex girlfriend) My brother couldn't stop her, so he didn't, deal with it, it was supposed to be like this...) We were sitting on the yard near house. It was quiet. We loved it, the light was shining brightly and that was everything I needed for now. Maybe was Clara just some revenge to Kaya, but it felt like revenge that can become not revenge, but love lately... We switched girlfriends. Fun idea for a boring day...

Drama isn't done if you're searching for it. Drama queen Kaya was there, what do YOU think happened? Ofc you don't know that, because you weren't there, so sit and listen... I wasn't the only one who wanted revange. Suddenly Kaya wanted it. Like she standed there first apologizing to me, that she hoped that I'll come to the bathroom, but her lies were seen from the moon. Maybe my story telling isn't fun anymore but it get just more fun with seconds, you just have to watch the time, because I am about to tell you something that will make you fall asleep... Yeah, Kaya s*it...

Don't know what you want to hear, but here comes my deal. My part of the story. I said I should've known what was happening. I  thought I knew, but I was looking at the blank page I guess. Kaya knew exactly how to hurt someone, I don't know what I didn wrong, but what she did got wrong. Just wrong... If you are the kind of reader that forgets stuff that has read, I was sitting on the yard with Clara. I saw her eye color. It was green and I liked it. Her make up was gone all over her face, because she cried. She had something for my brother. Something I guess Kaya had too. I kissed her there to make her feel safe. Then Kaya came, blah, blah, blah and she kissed me. Blah, blah, blah, long story short I had no girlfriend.

Drama is a huge deal with Kaya. This isn't drama what I told this is just stupid s*it that happens everyday to everyone. Don't know if you care but revenge is strong word. Word full with evil, but full with a hope everything will be like normal. Guess Kaya didn't want revenge, she wanted, she smelled, she needed something to happen. If you are worried that she is the part of the deal with New York s*it let me stop calming you down. She is. But there is another girl that is a part of it, too.

After I didn't believe Kaya, she said to my brother (don't ask me how I've heard but I did): "if you want a change, and if you want happiness, it won't take long to understand what I'm talking about" This was kind of the first sign that I remember for the NY accident. My deal was that I didn't want to break up with Kaya, it just came to my mind, and I guess her deal was wanting me go away from her f*cking life. My brother's deal wanting two girlfriends, and Clara's deal was wanting to disappear from all this. Other deals were everything to stop, but deal of fate was wanting us to go to New York. That was the day that dad bought tickets to New York, and bought a 2 star hotel in the middle of the world. I don't know his deal, but you'll know it soon. What was deal of my mother, it was to get drunk in a club and buy some useless s*it in late open shops that sell cloths. That was the exact thing she has done...

Deals are crossing themselves. They always were, by the end you'll know what I should do and what I should never done then.

Am I supposed to feel guilt about what happened? Am I supposed to talk about it like it never happened, Am I supposed to take it like it never happened? But like I am always saying: "it's never too late, you can always escape..." Some of us couldn't...