Changing Destiny

9.

I want to see her one more time it doesn't matter if it's from afar just one time to see her to confirm my feelings. If I am really in love or not.

To confirm my feelings I want to go to vrindavan but I suddenly can't go since I just came here yesterday. Mother and father will really not appreciate it but I need to go. So I decided I will go in afternoon.

In morning I told them about it . Maa was a bit sad since I have not been home from a really long time. I told her it's really important.

I started my journey after noon having lunch. I went my way towards the vrindavan forest first. Since it's also sawan season this time around. I reached there in three days this time with slow way which last time took me more than five days.

I saw swings are there this season too but no happiness and excitement is present in the atmosphere. The atmosphere looks really sad. So I looked around the atmosphere. The swings are beautiful as always.

                  

                         

     

I looked around a bit. There is really a bit depressed and sad feel here. So I went towards the way where it's major source of this sad aura.

I saw some gopis there sitting in a pavillion near the yamuna river. I went near them while staying three steps away from them. So to get there attention i spoke a bit loud , "Devis .......... "  " Devis....." I shouted a bit loud again since they didn't react.

They all looked towards me. I spoke to them, " if you all think I am not being rude can you tell me reason of your this extreme sadness. If I can do anything for you to remove your sadness please tell me."

One girl spoke our this , " dev our source of sadness is seperation is from our source of love. There is nothing you can do anything in this. "

"So why you let him separate from you. Devi's" I asked.

" Karma is our dharm. We can't tie someone from our love just to stop them from their karma." The lady in center said this.

"So can't you go to him and he can't come to you." I asked.

The lady in center again said," we are cursed with this seperation to get the most purest form of love which is selfless love which can't be obtained with any hardships. If we are destined to meet we will meet if we are not we will not.”

" I understand we can't anybody with us just because of love to stop from doing there karma but we don't struggle to get what we want how will we reach there." I said.

" Love is different from the our goal. We can't just by hardwork or force. It is only to feel when you start to attach hope with that person it becomes burden. " The lady said again.

" You really have selfless love towards that person. I really salute your this love towards the person." I said.

"Dev do you have work around here because doesn't look like who live near here.” a girl asked.

"Oh forgetful of me not introduce myself . I am sut putra karna. I am here to find someone."