His Canary [他的金丝雀]

12. I Hate You

　　Dong Ci didn't want to cry, but when she saw the report card, tears could not stop rolling down her eyes.

　　Her last chance of redemption was gone...

　　She had always thought that as long as she could get into Class 1 based on her own ability, even if she agreed to Jing Rong's ridiculous request, it was only to keep the uncertainty in her heart. But now, the deal she agreed to directly dragged her into the abyss.

　　"Jing Rong, you said that you would let me get into Class 1..." Dong Ci knew what the consequences would be after she said this, and she also knew that Jing Rong had been waiting for this moment for a long time, but she had no choice. 

　　Jing Rong took the tears on his fingertips into his mouth, lowered his eyes to look at the watery eyes in his arms, and smiled seductively. "Kiss me, and I promise to let you enter Class 1 smoothly."

　　Dong Ci stared at him blankly, tears still falling unconsciously from her big eyes. She hesitated for a moment, but still stretched out her hands to hook his neck.

　　Trembling, she pressed her lips against his thin lips, and Dong Ci's tears fell even more profusely as their lips and tongues touched.

　　She felt that she was so bad and dirty, but when she thought of her mother and her dead father behind her, she could only move forward. Perhaps it was just as her mother said in her diary at the time: People can tolerate everything for the sake of living.

　　The difference is that her mother did it for the sake of living, while Dong Ci did it for the future and for her father's unfinished dream.

　　"..."

　　When An Chengfeng found Yan Ningshuang, she was staring in the direction of Jing Rong and Dong Ci in a daze.

　　"What are you looking at?"

　　An Chengfeng bumped into her and said impatiently. "Everyone is waiting for you to cut the cake, why are you spying on them?"

　　Yan Ningshuang came back to her senses, she blinked her eyes, and suddenly looked up and said to him. "This is the first time I've seen Jing Rong so gentle."

　　"He is always gentle when he is in a good mood." An Chengfeng didn't care, and pulled her to leave. "Okay, okay, let's go, when did you become so interested in other people's affairs?"

　　He walked very fast, with big steps, and Yan Ningshuang, who was wearing high heels, was almost dragged down by him. She staggered to steady her steps, shook off An Chengfeng's hand, and her eyes returned to their former indifference.

　　"An Chengfeng, I've never been interested in other people's affairs. The only person I'm interested in is you."

　　People who are familiar with Jing Rong know that under his good-looking appearance, he has an extremely cold heart. But just now, Yan Ningshuang witnessed Jing Rong's gentle expression at that moment. Although it was only a short moment, it was enough to surprise her. 

　　The first person she thought of at that time was An Chengfeng. She suddenly wanted to ask him: Look, even a cold-hearted person like Jing Rong has someone else in his eyes, but what about you?

　　When will I exist in your eyes?

　　An Chengfeng has gone far away. He has always been like this. He has never been moved by her confession. He can be gentle to anyone, can like anyone, but that anyone will never include her.

　　...

　　In the second semester of the second year of high school, the grades are divided into classes.

　　On the first day of school, the notice board was surrounded by a huge crowd of students. Dong Ci passed by and heard someone ask curiously, "Huh? Doesn't Class 1 always only recruit the top 30 students in the grade? Why are there so many more this time?"

　　"Need I say that? Look at the names at the end. I've never seen them on the report card before. It's obvious that they got in through the back door."

  　　Dong Ci tightened her hands around the book and quickened her pace to leave.

  　　Ever since returning from the banquet, Dong Ci had caught a cold and had a high fever for several days in a row. She even spent the New Year's Day sick.

  　　She was particularly anxious in the days before school started, especially when Jing Rong called to tell her that she had been assigned to Class 1. She felt an inexplicable emotion in her heart. She couldn't tell whether she was happy or unhappy, she just felt like there was a lump in her heart, which made her extremely uncomfortable.