I'm here TOMXJAKE

go ahead

spent a few months looking for Jake, and now, I just feel a void, because... Because it was my fault, why did I have to be so shitty to him? , and worst of all, on Valentine's Day, I HATE MYSELF, I HATE MYSELF, I HATE MYSELF, because I had to go out with James!!, I didn't even want that, I should never have approached those girls at that party, who also seem like needy bitches, nor I don't even know how they got my number, but... I won't blame them... I didn't have any interest in them... I just wanted to be nice... Or maybe I'm just a bastard, I just shouldn't have gone that day, I should have stayed in home to rest, I should have taken my days off, I should have been with Jake, I should have loved him, I should have spent time with him... But I neglected him, I can't sleep, I can't deal with the guilt of that day and if I managed to rest it's in vain because I always dream about what happened, about how shit I was, about Jake hating me... Or... About what couldn't be.

Tom gets out of bed and checks the time on his cell phone.

Tom: Shit, I haven't slept all night, it's almost time for my work.

The officer looks out the window, and looks at the sky that seems to accompany his sadness, when he saw the news he saw that many jobs and schools were closed until further notice, since the weather would be like this for a long time, lightning, rain falling horribly It seemed like the sky was breaking itself

Tom lies on the bed, looking at the ceiling with his sleepy eyes with dark circles under them, a little red and swollen from crying.

Tom: and... If I don't go?... -sighs-, as if I were a little child to start thinking about that

The one with light eyes gets out of bed again and decides to start his day, he gets ready, and goes to work.

While at work it was the same as always, distributing jobs, monitoring areas, etc., etc. This used to be fun for him before, but lately, he was not happy, he did it with little enthusiasm, he didn't know what was happening to him, well , maybe .. Maybe yes

Lake: Hey Tom.. Um, you're okay.

Tom: oh! Yes, no, don't worry - mentioning that something somewhat downcast and very poorly hidden -

Gabby: Tom, you're not good at hiding it, I know you're sad about Jake, most people here know it, but you can't be sad forever...

Lake: Gabby is right... -looks at Tom-, listen, we don't have the power to go back in time or change what's already done, we can't bring it back, but what you can do is honor it in your memory.

Tom: I know... But I miss him a lot...

Lake: We know, but do you think Jake would want to see you sad?

Saying this broke Tom, who cried silently. The officer tried to answer the question of the red-haired girl in front of her, but was interrupted by a dark-haired boy who entered the office with all his energy.

James: HELLO GUYS!! HOW ARE THEY GOING?

-James turns to look at everyone and reacts that he came at a bad time-

James: Um... What's going on? Did you see a dead person? Haha -nervous laugh-

Gabby: JAMES!!!

James: sorry...

Tom: no, .. Okay, that's fine -sighs-

Lake: come on Tom, you have to move on with your life, don't stay stuck, you haven't even organized the

Tom: the funeral, yes, no, it's just that I haven't resigned myself to even seeing his face... At least not like this

James: okay now!